The weight of the world can get the best of us sometimes. That’s where I’ve been for the last couple months. I’ve been worried about life, about relationships, about money, about moving, all of this stuff.
Suffice it to say that things have been heavy.
It seems like every few months this stuff has a way of compounding on itself to the point where you can’t really think straight anymore and where you can’t do the things you want because you’re so preoccupied by the fact that there’s so much to do, and you’re just sick and tired of it all.
Things had been going alright for a long time and I was doing pretty well for a while and then I got it into my head that I wanted a change and I wanted to move but money was a problem so I had to find more writing gigs, and so on and so forth until I was at a point where I was so tired I was even questioning whether I wanted to write at all anymore.
I knew I had to do something to either improve my situation or something to calm the thoughts in my head.
Then seemingly out of nowhere my eyes landed on my journaling app on my computer.
I hadn’t written anything in there for a long time and I figured what the hell.
The great thing about private journaling is that you can write whatever the hell you want, even your most private intimate maybe even shocking thoughts and no one will judge you for it. It’s simply to get the cobwebs out.
It’s just an all out purge of the numerous things careening through your head.
At least that’s what I use it for, I’d be lying if I said I just type and type and have a problem forming correct sentences and there’s also a lot of profanity but it’s ok because I’m the only one who will ever see that writing and that’s what I love about it.
It’s first and foremost a way to get the things in my head out.
A lot of times it’s rambling and if you were to read you’d think I was straight up crazy but I don’t worry about that because there’s no way I’m ever going to publish any of it.
Suffice it to say, it helps, a lot.
If it can help me I’m pretty sure it can help you too.
I know what it’s like to feel like things don’t make sense anymore because you’ve overloaded your brain to the point of debilitation.
Journaling helps though.
If you want, you can just write and then immediately throw it away or burn it in the fireplace but getting all the useless junk out of your head is seriously a life saver.
If you’re at that point, I suggest giving it a try. I use an app called Day One that you can lock and automatically delete.
It helps, believe me, it helps.