Today I love feeling determined to enjoy my life to the fullest. I love that even though I seem to tire easily I keep going. I love that even though my medication is part of what is tiring me out and slowing me down, I have medication that is keeping me healthy and that’s important if I’m going to be so tired. I love that, while tiredness feels like a weight on my mind, my mind still comes out to play when I write. I love that yesterday I managed to get into the bay and swim a bit even though my medication makes me feel the cold of the water as pain. I love that I got to smell that harbor smell when we were out in the kayaks last night and it took me back to the first time I saw the ocean in North Sydney, Nova Scotia where we were catching the ferry to Newfoundland to meet my cousins and stay with my grandfather for a couple of weeks. I love that coming back across Newfoundland on our way home on the bus, the company had over sold the seats and to let older people sit down my father stood in the aisle of the bus for 500 miles of highway. I love that for that same reason my brother and I rode above the seats in the luggage rack for most of that trip, those were different times and that was some fun I tell you.
Today I love that I am at home in the city or the country, that I am at home with my kind of people and my kind of people are people who realize that we are all the same, from the same origin and going in the same direction with the same wants and needs. I love that my kind of people aren’t biased. I love that my kind of people aren’t pretentious because of inherited attributes they had no control over. I love that my kind of people look out for anyone in need of being looked out for. I love that I have found lots of my kind of people and some day soon I would love to have my picture taken with as many of them as I can gather into one place, when gatherings are allowed again.
Today I love getting to relax when I’m feeling tired. I love feeling hopeful, so much power resides in hope and so little in anxiety that I feel they are truly opposites and when ever I feel anxious I start hoping for better and in imagining what better might be in order to hope for it I find the hope has driven out the anxiety yet again.
Today I love drinking coffee while I sit hopefully by the water and enjoy my life well.