Today I love being clear headed, especially after yesterday where there are some pretty large chunks of memory that are just not with me now. I love how funny it all is and how it makes me laugh to think of what might have happened. I love that I honestly am not sure that I was even discharged from day surgery yesterday and think it is entirely possible that I may have escaped against medical advice. I love that I have little snapshots of memory that go with nothing, like I remember pushing the button in the elevator to go to the main floor but don’t remember how I got to the elevator, which elevator I took, getting into the elevator, riding on the elevator, getting off the elevator, or walking out of the building. I love that my next snapshot of memory was sitting on a bench outside the hospital, so I know I am not still in the elevator admiring the shiny buttons. I love that I walked 5000 steps home while drinking coffee from a thermos in my man-purse and remembered to stop to buy eggs and remembered to wear my mask when I stopped, and managed to remember to put the eggs in the fridge when I got home, I checked later, ’cause I couldn’t remember doing that. I love that the whole walk home is nothing more than snapshots of way points in my memory. I love how shattered and pieced together my yesterday seems to me, like an impressionist or abstract painting.
Today I love that groceries have been bought and other groceries will soon be ordered today. I love that I have cooking plans and that I have prep plans and that this weekend is going to be fun or I will know the reason why it isn’t, so there, I have spoken! I love that we are on the way to the cottage tonight and there will be swimming and boating and outdoor cooking going on. I love that I will be organizing some moving of some materials over the next few days and hopefully that will move my redecorating forward a great deal. I love that this week off from doing any work on the house has been very restful.
Today I love macaroni and cheese and I love that I am planning to make that and I love that I use my mother’s and my grandmother’s recipe, handed down as it should be. I love that I have many things to do today, but I’m going to take it easy on myself if I don’t get them all done, I’m still feeling a bit knocked around from yesterday’s day surgery.
Today I love drinking coffee in the kitchen while the food is getting made.