Today I love innovative people. I love the ones who have found ways to make their lives work in these interesting and often difficult times. I love that my friend Lisa is doing yard work instead of working at an entertainment venue. I love all my friends who are performing online these days. I love all the show organizers that are cheerfully saying, “See you next year.” and making plans to make their next annual show worth waiting two years for and generating much anticipation in that way. I love when things that need to be done but seem impossible suddenly get the completed by someone who just never bothered to consider the task’s impossible nature. I love when I attempt something that has been thwarting me with its appearance of being difficult and all of a sudden it turns out to be simple and easily done. I love when I have a problem that needs me to think outside the box and I look at it and tell myself why it can’t be solved and then question that reason and sometimes answer it with and other reason and eventually I get to the reason that is false and all the previous reasons come tumbling down and the solution is looking me in the face. I love when I can legitimately claim being innovative myself, though it is rare and often looks like an uglier form of innovation to my eye.
Today I love that it might be pie day or it might be muffin day, but it is definitely finish scraping the living room ceiling day. I love that I have nothing against popcorn ceilings until they get damaged and then they cannot be repaired so out they go. I love that slowly things move forward in the present, but they look like they were fast in the past. I love that the future could be anything and though we anguish over what irreversible things we might or might not do, once done we rarely anguish over those things and always look for new things to anguish about and so I’ve learned to not worry so much about what I might or might not do, life’s easier that way.
Today I love that I didn’t feel well yesterday and don’t feel well today but today’s not well is not the same as yesterday’s so I’m counting on progression to get me feeling better eventually and that is the power of positive hope. I love that I am continuing to work as much as I can and maybe more than I should and that is the power of positive denial. I love that neither today’s, nor yesterday’s feelings of unwellness have anything to do with my arthritis.
Today I love drinking coffee while I actively build up my mental defenses and ready myself to deny feeling unwell so I can kick my way through this morning and on through the day.