Today I love this brilliant clear day even though those temperatures are wicked cold. I love thinking of ways to describe the cold that make me laugh, ” … so cold that when you spit on the street it bounces like a glass marble.” I love strong friends who set examples for me every day and show me what it is like to be the leader in their own life. I love people who, when faced with disaster and tragedy in their worlds, get up every morning and determinedly continue to be who they always were, doubling down on their belief that the best they can be is not what brought the problems and may well be what saves the day in the end. I love when people take a step forward at every opportunity, knowing that their one step won’t bring them much closer to where they are going but knowing also that they cannot move any farther forward until that next step is taken. I love good people who question things that don’t appear clear. I love being certain of my actions and happy to keep myself walking the line that I set out for myself with only the occasional side trip for entertainment purposes.
Today I love that I am still going even though I feel like I’ve been drained of all my energy whenever I exert myself. I love that I am tougher than this, whatever this is, this thing that has me breathing harder and feeling tired and beaten and like I cannot breathe deeply enough. I love that I will not relent and I will not shut down until I have given my last ounce of strength and determination. I love that even when I feel like I don’t have the energy to get up out of my chair to just go to bed, I get up and do whatever needs to be done that I can manage and I will not stop.
Today I love hanging in the Wednesday office and admiring the beautiful day that is sparkling outside this well chilled window. I love that I have my big boots on and my feet are toasty warm. I love that I have a job to do this afternoon that is physical and that I will get up and go and do it and still keep going when that is done. I love that I cannot be stopped or held back until I am stopped completely, because I am determined to keep going as long as I can. I love that this feeling weak thing is damned well going to pass and I will get better and I will keep going, just watch and see if I don’t!
Today I love drinking coffee in the shady Wednesday office while the sky shines so blue outside the window that it almost hurts my eyes.