Today I love the chances that we get to love and to be loved. I love that when we lose someone the pain is a gauge of how much we had, though it is always a long time before our hearts can see clearly enough to understand and absorb that measure of our loss. I love that as a community there is always the painful realization of our inability to shoulder the burden of an other’s loss, and that too is a gauge of love for the one who has lost their heart’s desire. I love that I too feel an inadequacy that is apparent in my wishing I could do something, anything to right what seems to be the worst possible wrong, because that means I am bound by the heart to the people in my community. I love that those who have suffered loss have had something wonderful in their life. I love that at the saddest times there is the deepest love in a community, a love that can accept anger and sadness and make it acceptable and even accept that it is necessary in a world where the things and people that we love can leave or be removed from our lives without any justice or acceptable reason.
Today I love Winter’s raging weather tantrums and the fact that I made my way through them to get to the Wednesday office. I love meeting old friends and finding out that they know new friends when I go to introduce them. I love that this seems to be a day of old friends as Facebook is telling me that this is the anniversary of the commencement of my friendship with Caitlin Carpenter who started this whole Today I Love thing. I love that her current profile pic makes the video that Facebook “created” for us look like she is very angry about being my friend or at least very angry about Facebook telling people.
Today I love that I am feeling better this morning than I did last night. I love that there are mandarin oranges in the oatmeal. I love patches of blue sky on stormy days. I love sunshine. I love gathering things together that make me feel like I’m on top of situations, things like information, other people’s opinions, stuff needed to fix things. I love seeing amazing skies ahead when I’m driving in the dullest of blustery days. I love finding my way in the hard times, seeing where I’ve been in the good times, and finding that I’m where I need to be all the time.
Today I love drinking my coffee while I contemplate how love keeps telling us we cannot lose what we’ve had, and loss keeps telling us to have love, to cherish each other, now and for ever.