Today I love feeling slow and sludgy from the medications I’m on for the next five weeks, ’cause it reminds me of how fast and fluid I usually am and makes me appreciate that. I love that even when there seems to be no options to figure out my health problems, as trivial as they might be, there are people, doctors, specialists willing to “take a crack at it.” I love that for the most part, my health is fine, and I love that when I am not well I tend to recover quickly. I love that I am surrounded by understanding in my household, that makes life so much easier. I love that when I was alone there was no understanding because I’m pretty hard on myself when I am alone. I love that I keep learning these lessons, that the universe isn’t tired of teaching them to me. I love that, as a group, the universe keeps trying to teach us her lessons and we are not learning very fast but she still keeps working on us. Yay, Universe! I love that the smallest speck of dust is as valid a piece of the universe as is the largest planet, and that whenever I start feeling too important or too insignificant I can remind myself that I occupy the same position on that spectrum as the dust mote and the gas giant, just a part of the whole, no more, but no less.
Today I love that it is Wednesday and I am in my Wednesday office soaking up the Wednesdayness of the whole experience. I love how the week always seems to revolve around the day I’m in, like it is a rolling wheel and I’m riding on the inside bottom of the rim and here we are at the Wednesday part again with the rest of the week arched up over us.
Today I love almond bark. I love that there are new cushions in the Wednesday café office. I love the memory of candy cigarettes, though I am aware that we’re supposed to call them candy sticks now. I love seeing the wonder on children’s faces when they are very little and seeing things for the first time. I love how often people are surprised to find out about songs that Prince wrote, wow that was a whack-load of music. I love that yesterday I must have done fifty loads of laundry and cooked a lot of food and wrote a lot of words.
Today I love drinking Wednesday coffee in my Wednesday office at a slow and sludgy medicated Wednesday pace … yay.