Today I love what good rest can do. I love feeling better even though I’m not feeling good yet. I love that there is obvious healing because it takes a lot more movement to cause my back to spasm, and when I cause my back to spasm the pain doesn’t blot out my consciousness now. I love that I can sit down without causing pain, so that’s half the couch battle right there. I love that the meds worked so well, and that I’m likely going to reduce the one by two thirds today to see how that goes (as per doctors instructions). I love the feeling of being less restricted by the pain. I love that things are clearly and finally moving in the right direction. I love waking up early and getting out to see the world outside in the dark. I love that the maple tree that was sending down parachutes of leaves has been steadily dropping them all night in a blustery wind and now it has laid out a carpet at it’s own roots, decorating the yard and nearby driveway for the last days of Autumn. I love the look of scattered leaves in sunlight.
Today I love that because of my back pain, I’m on hold from my Adventure Wednesdays program ’cause that means I’ll appreciate it all the more next week if I’m well enough to venture out again. I love that I have been taking off to a different town every Wednesday for over five weeks now and working from a café for the day. It isn’t really a program, just something that happened and now I like to call it a program just for fun. Today my office will be back at home again. Next Wednesday? Who knows. I love that. I love working from cafés and other places where I’m not distracted by things that need doing that I’m responsible for.
Today I love kicking through leaves on the ground. I love thinking about raking them up, but I can’t just yet because of this stupid back thing, so I get to watch them accumulate even more. I love walks in the parks of my little city this time of year and I hope to be able to do that soon before the leaves are off in their mad whirlwind tour of everywhere. I love peanut butter cookies. I love chutney. I love children when they laugh. I love them other times as well, but when they are laughing they are happy and comfortable and that somehow makes me comfortable and happy too.
Today I love coffee on the couch … drinking it there, not spilling it.