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Sometimes Living is the Hardest Thing to Do

What is the point of life? Sometimes I ask myself this very question. It doesn’t even have to be a particularly bad day. I just wonder and I am curious. At other times I am exasperated. It all depends on my mood.

Bringer of Joy

When you were born, your very existence brought tears to the eyes of those who instantly fell in love with you. Babies are precious and life is precious. The life coursing through your veins is a miracle in itself. When you were a child, there were people who loved you so much that they have forgiven all of your mischievous doings. As a child, you can do no wrong and if you do wrong, you learn that there are consequences and you move on. This doesn’t make your existence any less joyful.

Let Your Spirit Guide You

Whether you like it or not, you have a spirit. I find the spirit hard to define. It’s not exactly your soul; that’s a little different. It’s like this ephemeral essence of your being and of who you are, wrapped in an invisible veil of life force. If you believe in spirits in a religious sense, your spirit leaves when your body dies and your spirit lives on.

Either way, think of it as your life force. It is not something you can see; it’s something you can feel. When you get that occasional sense of euphoria of having climbed a metaphorical steep mountain, that’s the life force, the pride, the power, the sense of things being right in the world. We humans were made to conquer mountains of the greatest kind and our inner strength is immeasurable. Let this strength be your beacon of light during dark times.

Your Non-Existence Would Cause Heartbreak

You’re here, on earth, whether you like it or not. Undeniably, there are other people who know of your existence. Those people are attached to you in varying degrees of proximity in terms of their relationship with you. If they know of your existence, imagine how they might feel if you were to no longer exist. Do you know how many people were in the throes of torturous heartache and sorrow when Michael Jackson died? Well, thankfully you’re not him. But you are you. Whether you like it or not you are loved and cared for by more people than you realize. It’s just a fact. Please don’t leave a gaping open hole in their lives by choosing to no longer exist.

You Owe Nothing to Anyone

It’s true. You don’t owe anything to anyone. You don’t owe your life to anyone else. You owe it to you. You are allowed to do whatever you want with your life. You can decide to bake a delicious, aromatic, warm loaf of bread or you can choose to jump off of a cliff. The choice is yours to make. If the latter seems appealing to you, then keep reading on. No one can stop you from doing that which you really want to do.

Maybe your life has been one tragedy after another. Maybe it hasn’t. Maybe, no matter what your life circumstance and your current state of mind are, there is one person on this earth who can relate to you. Maybe if you were to share your thoughts and feelings through writing or through any other medium or platform, that other person might not feel so lonely anymore. But it’s up to you.

The World is Yours

Do what you want with it: this life, this world you live in. You could see every day as a challenge and fight like hell to overcome obstacles and adversity. Has anyone ever told you that you can’t do something and the urge to prove them wrong was so strong you felt like you might burst? Me too.

If you fight like hell, there is no way you can’t land on top at the end of it. Life is a series of challenges you cannot bear to give up because your inner demons are telling you “no” and you quelch them with your oppositional “yes.” I will never tell you that the world is your oyster, because that’s cliché and possibly not true. Adversity might be bearing its sharp fangs at you this very moment. But you can face your fears. And if that fear is of facing your monumental pain, then take it slowly, gently, and remember to be kind to yourself.

In the End

So, what’s the point of it all? Honestly, I can’t tell you. For everyone, it is different, and you need to find that one thing which fuels your life force. Even if you don’t want to exist right now, there is a part of you that does. It’s the reason you’re still here. It may be hidden deep within you, seemingly unreachable, but it’s there. Look up at the sky every day, and then look into a mirror and tell yourself how lucky you are to be alive. You may not believe it at first. But tell yourself that every day for 365 days in a row and trust me, you will find a reason to want to be alive.

Sometimes Living is the Hardest Thing to Do

Anjuli Nunn

Anjuli Nunn identifies as a writer and is based out of San Diego, California. She is a mental health advocate. When she is not composing poetry, she likes to study psychology and philosophy. She also enjoys spending time with her mixed breed 12-pound dog named Samuel, whom she rescued in 2017.


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Nunn, A. (2018). Sometimes Living is the Hardest Thing to Do. Psych Central. Retrieved on July 16, 2018, from https://blogs.psychcentral.com/mindful-recovery/2018/05/sometimes-living-is-the-hardest-thing-to-do/

 

Last updated: 27 May 2018
Last reviewed: By John M. Grohol, Psy.D. on 27 May 2018
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