“Am I really depressed or am I just lazy?”
If someone accused me of being lazy, I would be infuriated. I would be outraged by the fact that they are calling me lazy, when all I do is fight every day, and use all of the strength I can just to function on half of the level that the other people in my life are.
How can I be calling myself lazy?
But that’s what depression does to you. It lies to you. It puts thoughts into your head that you know logically are not true, but you can’t help but believe.
As a mental health advocate, I would never say something like this about another person who is struggling. I know that depression is a soul-sucking illness that sucks the energy and vitality out of a person, and preys on their self-worth.
I know that depression is something that takes more strength to overcome than most people can fathom.
My counselor tells me each week, that I need to remind myself I am resilient, strong and capable. I am all of these things and more because I have had accomplishments in my life (big or small), despite living with depression and anxiety. This is true of anyone living with mental illness. Self doubt tells us otherwise.
Having simple reminders like this in our back pocket, writing them down somewhere we can see them, like on a sheet of paper on the bathroom mirror, can boost our self esteem, and dissolve self doubt.
Something I have done is write simple reminders that I am strong, around the house where I can see them.
“I am capable because I wake up and get out of bed each day.”
“I can keep going because I have come this far, I am strong, and I have support.”
“I am resilient because when times were darkest, I kept going.”
It could be helpful in your recovery process to write out your own simple reminders, whatever they may be, and whatever works for you and your unique situation!
Writing down these reminders and repeating them to yourself each day, may also help to rewire your brain to bring about a more positive mindset and less self-doubt!