In many ways, I feel like my yoga teacher, Adrienne, has become a life coach as much as a fitness instructor. She is an old soul in a young, beautiful body – just the kind I wanted to be when, well, for my whole life now.
When I completed my first 30 day yoga journey, we celebrated with a lovely musical yoga session, where she flowed as gracefully as a ballerina to ethereal music and I wobbled and weaved attempting to keep up. But it felt so real, authentic – like one of this little life moments that you suspect might be a big life moment in disguise.
So now I’ve begun one of her new month-long series – this one called “Refresh.” It is for the morning, a practice to wake up body, mind, breath….I would have breezed through it in my 20’s, rocketed along in my 30’s, but now, in my late 40’s, everything hurts.
Especially first thing in the morning.
And especially right now.
In fact, I have more pain now in certain parts of my body (elbows, hips, knees) than I had 30 days ago, although the rest of me, admittedly, is feeling quite a bit better. I have so much pain sometimes in my elbows in particular that I worry there is something much more wrong than “just” thyroid dysfunction.
How can one’s elbows hurt so much? I mean – they are elbows. I’ve had plenty of issues with shoulders, ankles – end-point joints that typically bear the brunt of whatever physical fitness enterprise I’m enamored with in any given moment.
But I didn’t do anything to my elbows – nothing I can remember, anyway. They just started hurting one day and have progressively gotten worse, until it takes two of them to do simple things like pull a plug out of the wall (or push one in, for that matter).
This morning in Day 1 of “Refresh,” Adrienne made a remark about noticing how we move on the mat, because often that is how we move during the rest of our day as well. I found this very interesting!
Am I really that wobbly, bobbly and unsure off the mat? I will be watching this in days to come, but sometimes I feel like already, in just 30 days, I have become more aware of how I hold my space, whether I am reaching to try to touch my toes or to pick up (yet another) fluffy parrot feather that my avian love, Pearl, has molted off his tiny feathery body.
Sometimes a movement I am making in daily life reminds me of a pose I am learning on the mat, and I can almost reach to feel the grace and deliberateness that is available for me in both places…..almost.
Today’s Takeaway: How do you move about through your day? Do you find yourself rushing uncomfortably, feeling cramped somehow by your own schedule and your own pace? Conversely, do you sometimes feel like everything – you, your to-do list, your progress – is moving at a near-glacial pace, and you couldn’t hurry it up no matter what you try? Where might some adjustments bring a welcome balance you are missing right now?