As many of you know, right around this time last year I set (and shared) my usual New Year’s Intention.
If you’ve been following along, you also know by now that from the get-go, I found pursuing my new intention challenging.
This, of course, is because that intention was “The Year of Having Faith.”
And while I might have many things in abundance (anxiety, creativity, too many colorful throw pillows, etc.) faith has definitely never been one of them.
But I dug in, and over the past year, I have (um) faithfully examined faith from every angle I could think of.
From finding a definition for faith that seemed workable to realizing it may be possible to “train” for faith in the way a monk trains to meditate on cue, and from rewinding to my curiosity about faith (which inevitably ended up where it always seems to end up, with “May the Force be With You“) to ruminating on whether faith may be less a “thing” and more a relationship….
Suffice it to say it’s been quite a year.
But in review, I honestly do believe I have more faith today than I did a year ago.
Although I’m still not precisely sure what faith is, or even how to reliably recognize it.
And I still wish it had a certain color or smell or, I don’t know, a name badge or something, but I’m less sure that its seeming lack of willingness to self-identify is a potential deal-breaker.
Mostly, I feel like a dialogue has been opened up that is ongoing, fueled by mutual curiosity, humility and respect – in other words, the kind of dialogue that has staying power and some honest-to-goodness future potential.
As I move from this Year of Having Faith into another whole new year (stay tuned for my new New Year’s Intention – coming soon!), I am glad I took these past 365 days to endeavor to get up close and personal with faith as best I could.
As with anything that is approached with openness, curiosity and a genuine desire to learn, I feel like faith’s response as a mentor has been generous to me, to say the least.
12 months ago I felt like I had no faith to speak of.
Today, the evidence strongly points to the presence of a tiny “faith tree” growing inside me….one I am very glad and grateful to continuing learning to cultivate in the days and years yet ahead.
Today’s Takeaway: If you also made a New Year’s Intention, or a set of resolutions, or whatever tradition you prefer when a whole new set of 365 days begins, what has it been like for you this past year? Do you feel like you’ve made progress, learned new things, expanded as a human being in some way, become the better for your efforts? I’d love to hear about your experiences!