I have been working on this lately.
In fact, in the last couple weeks alone I have been hearing a (surprisingly sane) voice in my head giving me very clear instructions.
Here are some examples:
- It is time to give up this “body hate” business.
- It is time to let go of your so-called low self-esteem.
- It is time to release your fearfulness around money….and everything, really.
These messages feel like some kind of inner knowing, combined with an inner call to action – a reminder that time’s a’ wasting, and I only have so many years left to be as happy as I possibly can be as me.
Often I hear the “it is time” messages in the morning while I am meditating.
Often emotions will arise, and then the messages will come.
I will then breathe and do my level best to release the emotions I am feeling – fear, anger, disbelief, whatever – into my meditation.
Sometimes I will get a message reminding me that it is okay if I don’t understand the emotion I am feeling – what matters is to release it into the meditation so it can be free of me (and me of it).
So I always do my best to follow these instructions to the letter.
I have started to call the issues I am releasing “false low self-esteem,” because I can’t trace the origin of any one of them back to me.
They all seem to be learned opinions – formed from other people’s input, the culture around me, untested interpretations of past difficult connections – but certainly not inborn.
In other words, I wasn’t born thinking my body shape was ugly.
I wasn’t born feeling fearful about having enough of the green paper in my wallet.
I wasn’t born thinking I wasn’t lovable/smart/successful enough.
These beliefs and ideas came later on….crept in so stealthily it has taken me years to detect and label them, let alone run them out.
I am tired of them, to be honest. They don’t tell me the truth. They are horrible mentors who set a bad example. They just bring me down – and so unnecessarily.
This year, my biggest New Year’s intention revolves around letting these messages – and the false low self-esteem that has arisen wrongly because of them – go.
Through feeling and releasing the emotions associated with each message, and then simply permitting myself to think more and bigger and kinder of myself than I ever have previously, I plan to have a really happy New Year – all year long.
Today’s Takeaway: If you have suffered – or do suffer – from low self-esteem (false or otherwise) I would love for you to join me in this endeavor – and share your experiences! I truly feel like each person who commits to thinking well of themselves and being happy to be themselves helps us all! 🙂