I’ve been working from home for weeks now and have not stuck to simple rules such as getting dressed. As someone that has suffered from depression, I know how crucial it is to do your best to shower, do your hair, maybe some make-up, heels and a nice dress. So, to sit here day after day wearing the same slovenly clothes is distressing.
Then I turn on the television and see most shows that are now filming from home feature hosts that also are wearing sweats and who knows if they are even wearing pants or have slippers on. Needless to say I have made a personal commitment to get back to wearing my work clothes. I have a closet full of nice attire that is just sitting there. Why do I have to not be able to go out to look my best at home? Especially knowing that not getting myself together only triggers depression. I have to be vigilant and take care of myself cause I can’t fall back into a depression. I am already isolated. I live alone. I fear the outdoors, but we’re not supposed to go outside anyway so I have to work real hard to take care of myself and not live like a depressed person. Depressed people tend to let themselves go. Sometimes just taking a shower can be a challenge. Brushing your hair a struggle. Here I am with roots coming in, and can’t go to the salon to get my hair colored so I’m going to add insult to injury and not make sure my hair is groomed properly? No. Aside from the salon situation, I also can’t go to the gym and that also only feeds into more depression. It is all one big challenge that I have to take on whether I like it or not.
Then I think about people stuck at home that don’t suffer from depression. Are they going to possibly have a peak inside the realities of depression? Are they going to suffer and not have the tools to get through it? It’s almost as if this whole planet corona experience is some experiment in human survival. How do we adapt to our environment and what are we going to learn about ourselves and others. Maybe mental health awareness will take on a whole new voice. Maybe we’ll come out of this smarter and more self aware. Maybe we’ll find ourselves in a new world that has a better understanding of the power of mental health education, and we find ourselves in a position where we rise up and prove to be a species that endures hardships that shape us into better beings.
Not to sound corny, but I do believe things happen for a reason, and do think at the end of all this we’ll look back in awe of our capacity to survive, and be thankful for what we have learned and move forward in a new better light.