My boss told me yesterday I need to be more, “mindful when I speak.” When she said that I felt the intense need to lash out with a logical response like, “I believe in freedom of speech,” however, I don’t need to get written up or anything cause I work for the government and being politically correct is a necessity.
But I’m mad. I’m tired of all the sensitivity surrounding being politically conscientious, and I’m losing my sense of humor. I walked back to my desk and thought about things I have said in the past couple weeks which could elicit her remark.
- When she said she was going to be out for a Jewish holiday I said, “You don’t look like a Jew.” It’s just an observation.
- When she said there was a seminar presentation at UCLA on “The Gender Spectrum,” I said I wasn’t interested in attending that sort of thing and she took it like I was anti transgender or something when I’m not. What I wanted to say is I don’t need to attend a he/she conference.
- When I said I was tired of being accosted by the crackheads in Skid Row that’s when she said I needed to be mindful when I speak which got under my skin cause that has been my personal experience. I’ve been threatened by homeless people on drugs on multiple occasions so who is she to censor me. I didn’t say all homeless people in Skid Row were crackheads just some of the ones I’ve come across.
- When she showed me the emergency exits last week in case there was a fire I said, “Oh so the last month I could have died without knowing how to exit the building.” It’s the truth so sorry, not sorry.
- When she walked by my desk and saw me conversing with a coworker I said, “Look Sally, I’m making friends in the office. You better get worried.” That was totally a fair thing to say given she never wanted me here to begin with, and made me feel very unwelcome on my first day.
So now I’m in a situation where I’m just going to keep my mouth shut and be “mindful when I speak” when I’m around her, and see how she likes having boring conversation. On top of that we have a staff meeting today and I’ll stay quiet instead of my usual off the cuff remarks. If anyone says anything about me being silent I’ll look at my boss and say, “I’m practicing mindfulness right Sally!”