I’ve gone through bouts of productivity and bouts of procrastination and often wonder what brings on procrastination, what is the source of it, and how do I get out of it?
Prior to taking a mood stabilizer, procrastination wasn’t really an issue for me cause my mania would fuel productivity, and my underlying anxiety would keep me going, and my wheels would always be turning for fear of not completing tasks. But that’s not the case anymore with a mood stabilizer that curbs that anxiety, and my need for productivity. So now I inevitably am faced with procrastination challenges and issues. But, I think those issues have characteristics that go beyond simply experiencing the ramifications of taking a medication that chills me out a bit, and slows my down.
Let’s examine the initial questions I presented in an effort to better understand procrastination. To address my first question, what brings on procrastination, it’s a mixed bag? Laziness, fear of failure, and a the feeling of being stagnant all play a role in the starting features of procrastination. We can’t always help feeling stagnant cause what if you are going through depression. You might feel like moving forward is too much of a challenge so the result can be procrastination. Trepidation of failure can result in not even trying a task so you end up with zero outcomes for your goals.
Secondly, what is the source of procrastination? For me, insecurity and often times shame. I think when you lack confidence in yourself you are more prone to procrastinate. If you don’t feel good about yourself, and you don’t see worth in whatever it is you are trying to accomplish, you are less liking to attempt to achieve your endeavor. Again, an episode of depression can certainly contribute to procrastination but, sometimes it’s hard to decipher if it is clinical depression or just overall lack of confidence that impedes your inability to accomplish tasks on the horizon. Then there is shame. Shame is an odd experience that can weigh heavily on your mind to the point where you don’t feel like you are worthy of achieving so, as a result, end up doing nothing.
Thirdly, how do I get out of procrastination? Sometimes I fantasize about the old days, and think I’d be nice to quit taking my medication, and return to mania to get me up and going but, that is not a solution that is conducive to a healthy steady lifestyle. So, knowing that, I find that making a list with deadlines keeps me accountable. Setting goals that are reasonable is also key to avoid feeing overwhelmed. If you take baby steps your end results will add up, and you’ll see yourself one day with productivity. You don’t have to go full throttle and expect results over night, cause that is more likely to result in you quitting your aspirations.
I say all this cause it is human nature to procrastinate so, it is important to be vigilant on how you can fall into this trap. Depression or not, we all are prone to suffer from procrastination and, it is solely up to ourselves to do the necessary things to make an effort to overcome it.