It’s not exactly buyers remorse cause I didn’t buy anything but, I don’t feel good about the decision I made to agree in the mediation to fire the temporary conservator, and choose one of the suggestions from my mom’s conservator.
It will be a week ago tomorrow that I had to mediate to get an agreement, and I am not going to spend the rest of my life living in regret and it is hard. Not to make excuses, but I was outnumbered and felt undue pressure but, looking back there was no reason to remove the temporary conservator, and it is suspect that the old one would only step down if I agreed to his needs. So, it wasn’t exactly a mediation, more like a take it or leave it kind of thing.
So, I was on the phone with my best friend and she was so supportive and said I did win. I was the only one to stop a criminal that no one has been able to touch. I’d like to be happy about that but, it’s hard cause something just doesn’t feel right. The only one good thing is he is under investigation and has an open case with the FBI so maybe, MAYBE, they will be able to bring him down. Truthfully, that is the only way I will find solace and a positive resolution to all this. I did manage to write the court appointed attorney an email about my regrets which she replied that I signed documents agreeing and now have to live with it, but, my last plan or hell Mary is to go in front of the judge next month and put it on record that yes, I did agree but still think something is odd that he agreed to be replaced only by one of his people. Am I going to be back where I started with this new person? I can only pray and hope that is not the case.
Anyway, when I hung up with my friend she said you won. To which I replied, I won cause I have a friend like you.
When we go through rough patches in life, it is crucial to lean on people that are there to support you. I’ve learned that without my two friends that supported me thought his 2 year nightmare, that I am fortunate and have to be grateful. You are not always going to win. You are not always going to get your way. Life isn’t fair but, all you can do is your best to be good to yourself and others. Try and do the right thing. Follow your heart and especially your gut. Live your best life, and hope God will take care of the rest. Not to be holy or anything but this whole shebang did. bring me closer to God which is a true blessing.
Having said all that, my fat gut is telling me this is not over so we’ll see what unfolds. Maybe nothing, maybe something, but, for now it’s time to move on and get a life, back. Thanks for everyone that has read my posts on this subject. If you ever find yourself with a conservatorship nightmare feel free to contact me. It’s a tricky business that has a lot of holes and shadiness but there is a way to fight despite what anyone tells you.