I have always had a hard time falling asleep.  I wasn’t diagnosed with Chronic Hypo Mania aka Bipolar II till my late 20s, so spent two decades suffering from sleep issues.

Once I got properly medicated, I was able to manage it better, but, recently I’ve given some thought as to why, despite medications, I still have trouble with my sleep.

I think it’s PTSD.

Having knowledge of a lifetime of sleep troubles will stick with you. I remember when I was in grammar school I would panic when I couldn’t fall asleep right away, or would sleep a few hours then was up at 2 in the morning unable to release myself from the anxiety of knowing that I had to get up in a few hours, and know that I would have to fight not to fall asleep in class.

Last night I woke up at 2:30 am and spent the rest of the night in a panic knowing I had to get up and get to work by 7 am.  I felt the same emotions I endured in my childhood, and it was troubling.  People don’t often think of PTSD when they have sleep issues but think again.

It’s real.