I have a therapist, psychiatrist, friends and family but now I think it is time to look into getting a spiritual advisor. I haven’t been religious since my childhood, and wonder why now, at 39 years old, I am considering getting one. It seems like a huge step in a better direction then trying to continue to manage my stress all on my own. There is only so much medication, and support from professionals and loved ones, that can help work toward finding peace. It’s not even peace I am seeking but, that part inside of me that I had spirituality growing up. I kinda stopped caring about religion, or trying to find God once I went to college, and know something has changed in me. I am not sure what it is, and I find it fascinating.
Am I that desperate? Am I hopeful? Am I lost? How can I be all three when those reasons are so different. I don’t know. I haven’t been to church or anything for decades and now I want a spiritual advisor?
Weird but maybe being desperate, hopeful, and lost is ok. If that’s what it takes to take this huge step in my life, then so be it. Now I just have to find someone.