It’s funny but I didn’t realize how much turmoil, stress, and anxiety I’ve been enduring till today. Election Day is tomorrow, and I find my anxiety to grow as we speak. I’m trying to focus and remain calm, but it’s overwhelming and, to be honest, pretty scary. I’m not going to say I was addicted to the coverage but, I obviously overdid it if I am feeling so uneasy at this point. And the impact of all this madness is now truly manifesting itself as I literally have trouble feeling normal today. It makes me wonder how much I bottled up along the way. It makes me realize that I’ve internalized a lot of this stress as it all comes to a head now.
Having said that, I have made it a point to try and do what I can to prepare myself for the outcome of our crazy election. After work tomorrow, I am going to vote, then go home and disconnect from the rest of the world for the entire night. I don’t need to see anymore media coverage or speeches. Enough is enough.
Yes I will have to face to outcome Wednesday when I enter back into society but for now, considering how sick I feel from all this, I think it’s better to remove myself from the final scene in this horror movie we’ve all been subject to.
Breathe Erica, breathe….