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Don’t Cry In Your Cubicle

don't cry in your cubicleWell it happened, finally. The denial of my loved ones death came to a screeching halt, and of course it has to happen at work.  I was not prepared for it.

That morning I woke up from a nightmare. I thought I was hanging out with my loved one then all of a sudden they disappeared, and I realized they were gone. When I woke up I was like ok that was weird. I felt a little sick but thought that it’s ok, just continue on with your routine. So I did. I got dressed, made my bed, said goodbye to my cat, and was off.

Then two hours into work I was sitting at my desk and burst into tears. The tears were so hard and uncontrollable I was freaked out about how I was going to get the hell out of the office without everyone knowing, but, my breakdown was so bad I couldn’t move. I was shaking and struggling for air.

One of my co-workers showed up and tried to console me. I wasn’t even embarrassed by my hysteria cause I couldn’t even think straight. I tried to call my therapist to make an emergency appointment but my fingers wouldn’t work so my co-worker called for me. I was able to make the appointment and sneak out the door before anyone else saw my attack.

I knew this day would come and kinda thankful the denial stage is finally over, but, now I have to face a new stage in life. Reality.  And reality is fresh and new and everywhere.

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Don’t Cry In Your Cubicle


Erica Loberg

Erica Loberg was born and raised in Los Angeles, CA. She attended Columbia University in New York and graduated with a BA in English. She is a published poet and author of Inside the Insane, Screaming at the Void, What Men Should Know About Women, What Women Should Know About Men, Diamonds From The Rough and Undressed.


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Loberg, E. (2016). Don’t Cry In Your Cubicle. Psych Central. Retrieved on October 19, 2019, from https://blogs.psychcentral.com/manic-depression/2016/08/02/when-reality-strikes/

 

Last updated: 3 Aug 2016
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