Trigger WARNING: Referencing topic on Self-Injury (Self-Harm) or Non-Suicidal Self-Injury (NSSI).
Self-harm As An Emotional Checks and Balance
In my experience Self-Harm (clinically known as non-suicidal self-injury or NSSI) is more of the top of deeper issues.
As for me, I knew that Self-harm was not a healthy way to cope with painful emotions. Never-the-less I always reasoned it was better than the alternative to suicide. Yes, I truly felt I was avoiding death by suicide with SI, but emotional pain release is habit-forming. I need more, and I was not going to keep this cat in the bag too much longer.
It became my go-to compulsive behavior, I used it not only to cope with stress. Self-harm was my own check and balance between something physical and emotional. The sense of control over and a bit of Self-punishment just added to the guilt. Expressing emotions.
This was a terrible disturbing time in our life, I was still a young father, moved from the big city to Florida and just received gone thought completely destructive few months. Including major future set back. Along with coping with a new mental health diagnosis.
My First Step To Stop Self-Harm Change With A Word
Self-harm was part of my life since my early teens until I was in my thirties…till then I did not even think of stopping. Writing became an outlet for me, and of all things, I found writing poems helpful. I started to visualize feelings into words and imagery.
I was learning the power of the written word. I found out when I was at my deepest and darkest, I could bleed out my feelings into words or poems instead of self-injury.
It helped take the edge off, and more then a few times stopped the act of self-harm and aided with the healing. Some of the poems were dark, and some not so poetic. But it was the process which helped me through the urge to self-harm to get to the other side where I could control the urge.
The following poem I wrote instead of self-harming.
DIG DEEPER: Crisis Text Line How Do You Stop Self-Harming
Name your reason for hurting yourself and your reason for quitting.
Identify other ways of achieving the same result. For example, if you self-harm for the physical sensation, seek other ways of releasing endorphins, like exercise. If you self-harm to express your emotions, practice expressing them in words by writing them down.
Tackle the underlying emotions. Explore the feelings that lead you to want to hurt yourself. If it’s guilt, where is that guilt coming from?
Tell someone you trust.
Call a Warmline/Text Crisis Line. Text Crisis Text Line at 741741 in the US or 686868 in Canada.
Originally Posted at Chato Stewart’s Mental Health Humor at Psych Central: https://blogs.psychcentral.com/humor
We’ve talked about taking medication the last few blog posts. Whether you are for medication or for something stronger and all natural like COFFEE, I feel it’s a personal choice.
Stewart, Chato. (2018). Checks and Balance. Psych Central. Retrieved on Oct 30, 2018, from https://blogs.psychcentral.com/humor/2018/10/self-harm-check-and-balance/
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