October is a month of anxieties. Odd as it may seem, while living in Florida, Winter months still trigger Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD). This month, in Florida, we are at the height of Hurricane season and it keeps you in a constant state of planning/prepping for potential chaos and disaster.
To say this month has a few bad memories attached to it is being kind. However, I need to remember the good that came from the bad. As a blogger and cartoonist, I’ve always felt: we grow and learn from our past even when we need to repeat our past lessons until we learn our lessons.
Some years I wished we could just skip this month. The stuff in my head is not the type of memories you languish or wallow in but the type you forget about until being emotionally crushed by an aroma or sound. Then you relive what happened again and again. I feel hypervisual and emotionally drained from the swing–back and forth–about to fall and just catching myself in time.
The funny thing is I’m starting to forget details, things are blurring such as what has caused such deep scars. I’m starting to forget more and more, it worries me more, but then I forget for a while… then remembering totally freaks me out.
One event always stays with me in October, even though, I think I’m totally over it. There are days I still feel lost in the woods that icy night in the wilderness on Mt. Monadnock.
Now speaking about me losing/having memory issues; funny story. I started to write “my lost in the woods story” about what happened that day in October…Feeling the need to get it out and express in words and share the whole story of the icy night on the mountainside of Mt. Monadnock.
I thought this could make for a good blog post: I’m honest and real; the good original content of a young man making some bad choices and having consequences. Even to a point of loss of life, mixed in with some humor and had a moral. I started writing and getting some art together and was about to upload it to my blog… Only to find many of the images are already here uploaded in 2016.
Here is where my failing memory pulls the rug out from under my feet…
Well, turns out I wrote an awesome four-part article that I can now reshare with you below. One of them making the best of Psych Central Blogs. (Impressed myself on that one.) Best of all I did not have to rehash that emotional mountain alone.
Today is looking up already, it’s going on my gratitude list.
Maina Lost But On Top Of The World
Originally Posted at Chato Stewart’s Mental Health Humor at Psych Central: https://blogs.psychcentral.com/humor
We’ve talked about taking medication the last few blog posts. Whether you are for medication or for something stronger and all natural like COFFEE, I feel it’s a personal choice.
Stewart, Chato. (2018). Rember. Psych Central. Retrieved on Oct 15, 2018, from https://blogs.psychcentral.com/humor/2018/10/remembering-to-forget/
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