This month I’m diving into my depression with both feet. It’s already over my head. The slump has triggered insomnia, very common symptom for me during an episode, but it sucks none-the-less. The sleepless nights drag on, minutes feel like hours.
Watching shadows on the wall slowly blink on and off…There’s light emanating from my digital stuff in my room. I never realized how many little blinking blue lights I had around my room going off and on until I wanted, no, needed all the lights off. I just want to sit in the dark, and I can’t even do that right! It’s starting to get me incredibly annoyed.
A few more nights go by, and the same blue blinking lights now have me pissed off! But not pissed off enough to get out of bed and do something about it. So I just piss and moan over the light. As I said, I’m headlong into my second month of Bipolar Depression. At this point, I have not showered much or left my room much in days. So any motivation to do anything more than to just lay in the dark, well, it was slow coming.
Finally, a week later, I got motivated to do something about the blinking lights keeping me from having a dark room. The lights were also pissing me off at night.
Enter black electrician tape (electrical tape) for the little blinking lights. I got busy cutting a bunch of inch long pieces of tape. Then I covered all the little blinking lights in the room; such as the power protectors lights, my laptop, the modem, and a few other lights. Then shut off the main lights. Finally, everything in my room was pitch black, darkness, excellent. Maybe, I can finally get some sleep.
I walked over to my bed and tripped on something on the floor in the dark. Ya, I should have seen that one coming. Now, I’m in throbbing pain and can’t sleep… on goes the T.V.
Chalk up another sleepless night. Oh well, maybe tomorrow I’ll sleep with the lights on.
Originally Posted at Chato Stewart’s Mental Health Humor at Psych Central: https://blogs.psychcentral.com/humor
We’ve talked about taking medication the last few blog posts. Whether you are for medication or for something stronger and all natural like COFFEE, I feel it’s a personal choice.
Stewart, Chato. (2018). Depression 101. Psych Central. Retrieved on Oct 28, 2018, from https://blogs.psychcentral.com/humor/2018/10/depression-101-sleeplessness/
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