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There I Go Again, Screwing Up Trying To Pay It Forward: I Felt Like A Fool

Part 1: Pay It Forward

Weight Off Safety

Monday morning and I get ready for my walk, put my 38 pack on and started walking.  Besides the weights bouncing into my back, it was not a problem.  The straps were tight and the pack was not meant to carry this much weight but I walked on.  Got to my half-mile mark in the same 10 minutes I always do, so the weight was not slowing me down.

Coming up to the one-mile mark, there was an accident. I was about 50 yards away and I could see people getting out their cars.  A saw a woman on the grass next to a wheelchair.

I started to run to see if I could help,  I needed to get this heavy backpack off my back if I was going to be of any help at all.  About 20 feet away I tried to slip my arm out of the pack, but by running I made the straps tighten. So I reached over my head and took it off like a sweater.

The one problem was I was still moving and the backpack made me top heavy.

I slip and slammed my face into the sidewalk.   Shocking the people that stopped to help the woman in the first accident… They don’t say a word… just shockingly looking at me with my eye gushing blood.

I realize I can no longer be of any help to the situation, and I’m making it worse.  I FEEL LIKE A FOOL! So I back away.

I take the gallon of water weight out of the backpack and use as an emergency eyewash.  I do self-exams and there are no broken bones or damage to the eye.  My glasses saved my eye, but got mangled and damaged.

The sheriff came and sent everyone away so the EMT could get in to help the woman.  Then I talked to an Officer who was kind enough to get me an ice pack and I was on my way… With only a blackeye and a bruised ego!

Part 1 Pay It Forward | Part 2 I Felt Like A Fool

Side note: (But the woman was not hit by a car or anything, she just took a turn too sharp and fell out of the wheelchair.  What I heard her say is all she wanted was someone to help in her wheelchair.)

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There I Go Again, Screwing Up Trying To Pay It Forward: I Felt Like A Fool

Chato Stewart

Chato Stewart has a mission, to draw and use humor as a positive tool to live, to cope with the debilitating effects symptoms of mental illness. Chato Stewart is a Mental Health Hero and Advocate. Recovery Peer Specialist board-certified in Florida. Chato is the artist behind the cartoons series Mental Health Humor, Over-Medicated, and The Family Stew - seen here in his blog posts. The cartoons are drawn from his personal experience of living with bipolar disorder (and other labels). [email protected]

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Stewart, C. (2018). There I Go Again, Screwing Up Trying To Pay It Forward: I Felt Like A Fool. Psych Central. Retrieved on February 20, 2020, from


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