Coroner Ruled Chester Bennington’s Death a Suicide.

Here is what is reported:

On Friday, July 20th, the Los Angeles County coroner ruled Chester Bennington death a suicide by hanging. Watch Commander Lt. Rudy Molano said an autopsy was conducted on July 21.

Coroner office spokesman Ed Winter’s confirmed last week that no drugs were evident in Bennington’s room.

Bennington’s suicide echoed that of his good friend, Chris Cornell, who hanged himself in May. He had a strong bond with Cornell and died on what would have been the Soundgarden singer’s 53rd birthday on Thursday. – CBS

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Message from Linkin Park:

We’re trying to remind ourselves that the demons who took you away from us were always part of the deal. After all, it was the way you sang about those demons that made everyone fall in love with you in the first place. You fearlessly put them on display, and in doing so, brought us together and taught us to be more human. You had the biggest heart, and managed to wear it on your sleeve.”

Remembering Linkin Park

For me, I want to just talk about how Linkin Park’s music reverberated my own inner thoughts and feelings, it connected with my pain and emotion in a way that no other musician has in a long while. I would listen to any collection of their titles Bleed It Out.

 Linkin Park was part of a new youth revolution, and Bennington’s voice was its blaring trumpet. Both his delivery and lyrics melded earnest vulnerability with unhinged anger. Songs like “In the End” and “Crawling” have him violently shifting between those moods, tenderly delivering declarations of defeat before rage bubbled up through his throat for vein-popping screams of angst. – Rolling Stone |Chester Bennington: An Honest Voice of Pain and Anger for a Generation

 

The past few days struck me hard, more than I thought I would.  The loss of Chester Bennington is deeply sad, losing him to his “demons” his Mental Illness affected me deep inside! I was more caught up in how and what the music did for me, then what it took to sing it, and the pain and suffering that was in the verses.  I just knew this person got me and understood.  That was enough for me.  What else could I do that he is not already talking about and advocating and educating others about mental illness.

“My whole life, I’ve just felt a little off,” Bennington said in conversation with Music Choice earlier this year. “I find myself getting into these patterns of behavior or thought – especially when I’m stuck up here [in my head]; I like to say that ‘this is like a bad neighborhood, and I should not go walking alone.'” Rolling Stone |Chester Bennington My Mind Is Like a Bad Neighborhood

Knowing very little about Chester other than his music, it moves me, it soothes my moods when things get tough. It’s the first channel I listen to via Pandora “Linkin Park!”

What I did know he experienced a life with depression, addiction, and abuse, and the suicide while shocking was not a surprise.

The connection to my own life, moods, age, and the fact that on the outside he “seemed” fine rang true with me.  I have lived it, many times, days when you get into your head, and you feel trapped.  The idea of gloom and doom grows into hopelessness.  The longer I’m there, stuck, the bigger the walls of death are being built around me.  Constant never end pounding of a drum to harm myself or worst.  Hopeless dread, and grim thoughts circling in my head, while I am stuck. All the while, on the outside I ‘m looking fine, might even be laughing or smiling.

Everything you say to me
(Takes me one step closer to the edge)
(And I’m about to break)
I need a little room to breathe
(‘Cause I’m one step closer to the edge)
(And I’m about to break)

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Resources » Suicide and Crisis
In case you or someone you know needs support, here are some resources:
Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK
Crisis Text Line, the free, nationwide, 24/7 text message service for people in crisis, is here to support. For support in the United States, text HELLO to 741741 or message at facebook.com/CrisisTextLine.
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