“Looking forward, all that I can see, Is good things happening to you and to me” Akira Tana
I am focusing on the future, to make the most out of the years I have remaining on planet Earth.
The Bible teaches us to number our days. At age fifty I am very grateful for the life I have experienced. I certainly have not accomplished everything I had dreamed of doing but I am quite satisfied.
Mental illness in my life was a great game changer. Once entering a psychiatric hospital my life would never be the same. I was marked forever with a brand of shame. Not only that but the trauma of the experience and the physical effects of the medicines on my brain forever altered my psyche. On my first hospitalization, I was repeatedly shot up with Thorazine, which is a powerful tranquilizer used on horses. Psychotropic medicines are not kind.
A great part of looking forward and more important moving forward is dismissing a lot of the past. That is to accept the wrongs inflicted on you, your bad decisions and failures. While it is impossible to totally forget they should be viewed as lessons learned. I know many people who focus on a sad yesterday and allow that to ruin the present. While it is perfectly natural that there is a period of time where one deals with the past that time must be limited. Also accepting one’s own personal history doesn’t happen in a quantum leap but rather a gradual onset of peace. After all with the continuation of life, the suffering and anguish do not cease.
If I am fortunate enough to have the three score and ten allocated by the Bible I have about twenty years. If this is the case I have much more behind me then ahead. I see a world and society that is in desperate straits. We are as a people moving in the wrong direction. Instead of becoming one as a people we are being divided. I see the continuation of the ‘endless’ war as a policy by the United States. I see hostility towards ‘minorities’ and especially immigrant skyrocketing.
Case in point is this ‘migrant caravan’. I am not naive enough to believe that several thousand people spontaneously came together and had figured out the logistics to travel to the United States all during election time. However, the brutality of the tear gassing the children is quite appalling. In all fairness what was inflicted upon the ‘Water Protectors” at Standing Rock was more brutal and as far as legality goes the “Water Protectors” were in the right.
I could go on about a multitude of recent events that are quite troubling. But another aspect of spiritual maturity is accepting the evil that exists in this world. This world was never intended to be a final destination. Rather we are here for but a season and we will be judged by how we act here. Yes, evil abounds and yes there is no justice in this world. But I leave vengeance in the hands of the Lord as I am commanded. Our collective future in this world is the grave and you would be wise to learn this lesson before it is too late.
So I am quite determined to focus on my doing my own little part in my respective sphere. I hope to make my primary focus on my evangelistic efforts. This, of course, would compliment all my work for social justice as I feel that those who are concerned with their fellow man are fertile soil for the gospel message of unconditional love.
The wheel, as they say, is still in spin. Concerning helping those with mental illness I think I can best do that by living my life to the fullest I can. By being an example and perhaps an inspiration to those who suffer from the same ailments that I do. If I had proper guidance when I was young I could have done a lot better in many ways. But as I already noted that is water under the bridge and I have no regrets. Mental illness is a heavy cross but over the years my back has grown strong.
As far as writing this blog goes I am returning after a fairly significant hiatus. I do not know if I was even missed. For the past month or so I have been diligently working on my Biblical studies. I have not surrendered the dream of being a very successful writer. But as it seems to me today, if I am to win great fame for my creative pen strokes I would need some divine intervention. I do not think that I will ever retire the keyboard. I just enjoy writing too much to even consider such a fate.
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