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The Hard Questions

“I hurt myself today, To see if I still feel, I focus on the pain, The only thing that’s real” Trent Reznor

Are things going well in your life? Are you happy? Do you feel optimistic about the future? Are you prepared to die? 

Lies photoWe live in a world of lies. I remember in college how some punk kids would espouse a myriad of lies to impress others, in particular, young ladies. These selfish people had no morals they would say whatever it took to get what they want. I think you know the type I’m talking about.

To say that we are lied to does not go deep enough. We are manipulated by a well thought out vigorous campaign of deceit. Let’s look at the Catholic Church for an example. They promise you salvation. Unfortunately, historically they have a whole sordid history of evil. What is more troubling outside of this ill behavior is the lack of condemnation of the wickedness. I can readily accept that we are all human beings and that sometimes we fall short.  But not to recognize that clear evil and speak out against it is far beyond the line. To dismiss the Inquisition and Crusades or to lie about its extent or to glorify agents of genocide in the Americas is quite deplorable.

Let’s look at what’s going down in Pennsylvania today. There is alleged sexual abuse by the clergy. The abuse is blamed on more than three hundred priests and that there were more than one thousand victims. But the worst thing is of the coverup. Apparently, the bishops knew about what was going on and instead of taking measures to stop it they tried to cover it up. In some circumstances, they transferred the offending priest to a new parish where he began the cycle of abuse again.

Putting all this unChristian behavior together one wonders why there are adherents to the Catholic faith. This sexual abuse not only appears rampant but it has occurred with the full knowledge of all the authorities going up to the pope. It goes back to the world of lies that we live in. I was raised in the Catholic church. You are told that the Catholic faith is the only faith that is getting you into heaven. You are installed with rituals that manipulate your mind.

For example, the proper way of entering a Catholic church is to take some ‘holy water’ and make the sign of the cross. Then you are to bow before the altar. Bowing before the altar is outright idolatry. But there is another point I want to make. My dad, before his death, was a practicing agnostic at least as far as I could tell. He never went into a church, as long as I knew him, except for weddings or funerals. Yet when he entered the Catholic church he followed these rituals. Also, when he was on hospice dying from cancer he called to the Catholic priest for last rites. The man who used to boast at Thanksgiving dinner that “When I die I will discover the answer to life’s greatest mystery,” entered the next life with cowardice. Not that I fault him in any way or fashion.

Why do people then follow the Catholic faith? If they took the time to read the Bible themselves, something I never did in the Catholic church for eighteen years, they would find many discrepancies. I am not talking about minor points but glaring and obvious errors. For example, in the Catholic church, we were taught to keep the ten commandments. We were to have no false gods and we were not to practice idolatry. Then they will have you bow down before a statue of Mary. Even worse Christians are no longer under the law. A reading of the book of Galatians or Hebrews will leave no doubt of this matter.

So why do people keep with the Catholic church? Well to break away one must find some alternative. The Catholic church serves a purpose, it gives people a false security that they are fine with God. As long as they keep with the program all will be fine. In fact, all one’s sins can be taken away by a priest giving last rites near the moment of death.

There is also the idea of purgatory. Purgatory is never mentioned in the Bible but it is a teaching of the Catholics. If you pay the church money they will pray for your loved ones to get them out of purgatory quicker. What a racket huh? Something on par with the scammers of television evangelists.

There are other organizations that lie to us. Here are the tell-tale signs. One is taught to believe what they believe and they are not allowed to question it. Those who hold power are beyond reproach. Tremendous pressure is put on somebody to stay in line. There is glaring hypocrisy but it is ignored or swept under the rug. Grand promises are made to the adherents. There are certain rituals involved. Somebody breaking free from the group is considered anathema.  And most importantly reality conflicts with the so-called ‘truths.’ What those groups are, I’ll leave it up to you but they abound.

At this point in life, I question everything. When I hear something on the news I wonder if the events really happened or if it isn’t some fabrication, as a chemical weapons attack in Syria or weapons of mass destruction in Iraq. Trust me not only are they lying to you but they are actively trying to manipulate your mind into perfect obedience.

Please check out my book “Murmurings Of A Mad Man.” My journey has been a long and painful one. This book of rhymed metered poetry is a book of hope and suffering.


The Hard Questions

John Kaniecki

John Kaniecki is a full-time caregiver for his wife Sylvia. He is a published writer and works with the Church of Christ. John has lived with bipolar for over thirty years and has been hospitalized nine times, three of which were committed. John has chronicled his life story in his memoirs "More Than The Madness". Also of note is John's book of poetry "Murmurings Of A Mad Man" which are poems written about being committed in Graystone Psychiatric Hospital. John believes in the power of words to change the world for the better. His website can be seen here. His books can be seen on Amazon. You can visit his personal blog "Turn A Page Or Two" here.

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Kaniecki, J. (2018). The Hard Questions. Psych Central. Retrieved on June 27, 2019, from


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