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God Willing

“Life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans” John Lennon 

Yesterday was a very long day. My wife Sylvia had three appointments in the hospital. She needed to go to the wound center, for the ultrasound and a chest x-ray. I brought my Bible as reading material knowing that it would be a long day. 

U turn sign photoJust getting Sylvia up and showered is a task in itself. After that she didn’t want to go. But at this point if she resists something serious I just pick her up and force her out the door. So it was Friday afternoon. We arrived at the hospital at valet parking. But it was cold so all the workers were huddling inside and didn’t see me. I walked out and got their attention. They got Sylvia a wheel chair and we were on our way.

Check in went fine and so we were just on time for our appointment to the wound care. We waited fifty minutes but I was prepared to be patient so I simply sat and read. The doctor was very nice and I was delighted to be informed that Sylvia was going to get some home services for the length of her care at the wound center. It was a blessing. So in a very good mood Sylvia and I ventured for to ultrasound.

The ultrasound and chest x-ray was ordered by the doctor because Sylvia had swollen feet. The doctor did a blood test on Tuesday and found her slightly dehydrated and slightly high in sodium. I thought this coupled with the fact that Sylvia is no longer mobile caused the swelling in her feet. Still you have to check all the potential causes so Sylvia had an ultrasound done on her legs. She sat well and after about a half hour we were off to the chest x-ray. I comforted my wife, “Don’t worry Sylvia this is the last thing and then we get to go home.” I was contemplating what I would be making for dinner.

They wheeled Sylvia out of the chest x-ray when a woman announced that Sylvia would have to go to the emergency room. It was a surreal moment where I didn’t accept the significance of the words. It turned out that the ultrasound found blood clots in both legs. So off we went to the emergency room. I was shook up but I quickly recovered, no sense worrying about what you have no control over, besides my wife was in the best place possible to take care of.

So I waited five more hours in the emergency room. I did more reading and that day I read the whole gospel of John. Eventually at ten in the evening Sylvia finally got a room. So I go home and relax.  The next day some friends from church came over and we were cleaning. I called the hospital to check up on Sylvia’s condition. “I was about to call you” said the nurse, “Your wife is getting released today.” So once more the club of reality smacked me upside the head. I thought blood clots were  very serious and that they needed treatment. Seems that these blood clots were in very small veins and with medicine things would be fine.

Sylvia is now sleeping on the bed and I am finishing typing this up. I wrote a book of sonnets for Sylvia called “Sunset Sonnets” Please take a look

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God Willing

John Kaniecki

John Kaniecki is a full-time caregiver for his wife Sylvia. He is a published writer and works with the Church of Christ. John has lived with bipolar for over thirty years and has been hospitalized nine times, three of which were committed. John has chronicled his life story in his memoirs "More Than The Madness". Also of note is John's book of poetry "Murmurings Of A Mad Man" which are poems written about being committed in Graystone Psychiatric Hospital. John believes in the power of words to change the world for the better. His website can be seen here. His books can be seen on Amazon. You can visit his personal blog "Turn A Page Or Two" here.

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Kaniecki, J. (2018). God Willing. Psych Central. Retrieved on May 31, 2020, from


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