My Warning Signs That I Am Going Manic
“An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure.”
I found that almost nobody wants to go into a psychiatric hospital. The rare exceptions are the homeless. One time I was in a hospital and somebody from New Orleans was there seeking refuge from hurricane Katrina. He only stayed several days as his problem wasn’t a psychiatric condition but rather a social condition of homelessness.
If you suffer from manic depression you want to get intervention right away if you feel that you are going manic. What the intervention amounts to should be worked out between you and your psychiatrist. It could be the alleviation of stress, some change in your medicines (adding dosage or even a new chemical), or if extreme a hospitalization. Of course the latter is something we want to avoid if at all impossible, which makes catching a manic episode early all the more important.
So here are my signs of going manic.
Lack Of Sleep Without Getting Tired
Normally I’ll sleep a good eight hours a day. Sometimes as life comes and goes with its ups and downs I will sleep either less or more. At the times when I sleep less sometimes the lack of rest will be compensated by a nap. When I am going manic however I will sleep less and not be tired. Eight hours will dwindle down to six. I’ll be going to bed late and getting up early. I won’t feel like having a cup of coffee in the morning as I have sufficient energy for the day.
Fixation With Religion
I am a very religious person. I read the Bible every day, pray, and go to church without fail. (Not that that necessarily makes one spiritual.) So how do I recognize a fixation with religion as it is already a major part of my life? I seem to focus solely on religion. Also I will feel that I have some esoteric knowledge that has been directed to me by a divine source, that is I am in some way God’s prophet.
Projecting Thoughts Illogically
When I am going manic I will take the facts and make illogical conclusions that aren’t really based in reality. I will give an example. There was a local politician who got himself into some political trouble by bribing people to vote for him. When I thought about the incident I realized that he had ruined his political career. So far, so good right? However in my mind I thought that if this person hadn’t made this grand mistake he could have one day become president of the United States. It was more than an opinion but rather something solid.
Making Bad Decisions
When I am going manic I will make bad decisions. I will take rides from strangers for example. I won’t think matters through to understand the consequences. My inhibitions will vanish.
At this point when I am no longer in this reality I am too far gone. In truth my mind isn’t based in reality and I will be delusional.
I want to encourage you to work out your warning signals with your psychiatrist. When you do share them with others involved in your life so they can be on the watch too. A hospital is a great place when you need it, but it is best not to need it. By early intervention you can avoid a set back and much heart ache and pain.
Please check out my personal story with mental illness in my memoirs “More Than The Madness” https://johnkaniecki.weebly.com/more-than-the-madness.html
Kaniecki, J. (2017). My Warning Signs That I Am Going Manic. Psych Central. Retrieved on March 18, 2018, from https://blogs.psychcentral.com/fragments/2017/11/my-warning-signs-that-i-am-going-manic/