Suicide is best tomorrow, if you remember that tomorrow never comes.
I am confident the every single person who suffers from clinical depression has given serious thought to committing suicide. In fact I am confident that almost every human being who has walked on the face of the Earth has thought about ending it all from time to time. You are not alone in the world, there are people who care about you and love you. Suicide is a permanent fix for a temporary problem. You can always hold on for just one more day!
In my opinion there are only three good reasons for being in a psychiatric hospital. One is if you are changing medicines. The second is if you are manic and you are a threat to yourself or somebody else. The third is if you are feeling suicidal. There is no better place for a person to be, if they feel suicidal, than in a safe environment like a psychiatric ward. Asking for help and seeking aid is not a sign of weakness, rather it is a show of strength. To admit you need help is the first step in recovery. If you feel like you are going to hurt yourself, you definitely need help. Here is the number and the website for the National Suicide Prevention Life Line.
If you are feeling suicidal the best thing to do is to confide with somebody who cares about you. Preferably the family member or friend will be active in your day to day activity. Somebody you live with is ideal. If you have nobody in your life call your psychiatrist and tell him/her about your situation. When you call tell the office that it is an emergency and that you are feeling suicidal, that way the doctor is sure to respond as promptly as possible. If you have absolutely nobody to turn to you can always go to a hospital emergency room or call 911. Before you pick up an implement to end your life pick up the phone.
On the other side of things if you have a friend or loved one with mental illness stay active in their life. Ask them specifically from time to time in a direct manner, “Are you feeling suicidal?” It is better to offend a little then not to be proactive enough. This is a serious matter, a matter of life and death.
I want to encourage you that whatever you are going through that it is only temporary. Life does change, that is certain. In fact it is in the most difficult times that the character of an individual is made. Many people in life who have gone on to do great things attribute their worst moments with the credit for their success. Think of yourself as a clay vessel and your suffering as going through the fire. You will only be useful for the purpose you were designed for if you allow the fire to do it’s work. The Bible says “He who sows in tears will reap in joy.”
There is a line about suicide and it is a clear and distinct. If your dark musings have manifested to the point that you have formulated a plan to kill yourself than you need to get help immediately.
Hold on you don’t know what tomorrow brings. You made it this far, you can make it one more day. Above all understand you are worth it.
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