Bipolar Disorder

Bipolar Type II and the Role of Tenacity

Believing in your own abilities and being persistent are two characteristics that are important when it comes to managing life for virtually anyone, but they can prove to be especially influential for those of us with mental health concerns.

From my experiences with the ups and downs of bipolar type II disorder, I can say that it is disturbingly easy to completely lose self-confidence and drive for no apparent reason, even when the definitive symptoms...
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Giving Your Disorder Too Much Credit? Bipolar Type II and Self-Esteem

Self-esteem was a regular focus when I was in grade school and it was a popular topic in many of my university courses. Accordingly, I was surprised and somewhat disturbed last month when my advising mental health professional suggested that low self-esteem could be a major component of my issues.

I was not taken back by the information alone, since self-esteem disruptions and mood disorders are undeniably linked, but I was instead blown away...
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Bipolar Type II: Navigating the “Dark” Season

First off I’d like to apologize for the lengthy lack of writing on my part. Luckily (kind of), the reasons for my absence have provided more than enough material for several new blogs. The short story is that I experienced more symptoms during the low light (or “dark”) part of the year (roughly Oct-March inclusive where I am) and this blog was the unfortunate victim of my addled productivity. The longer story is...
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Do You “Get Me”? The Search for Understanding

About a year ago, I lost touch with a very close friend. Well that may be putting it lightly, the friend essentially disappeared, but with good reason. We were both in very bad places psychologically, and neither of us could do any good for each other. Fortunately for both of us, the other person could recognize the issue while I couldn’t; this is why they had to disappear. Anyway,...
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Bipolar Type II: Work and Pacing Yourself

In my experiences with bipolar type II disorder, the concept of pacing myself has become something that needs constant attention. When I’m clear or moderately hypomanic, I can often become incredibly productive, but it doesn’t come without cost.

Sometimes, the charge of energy that comes with my hypomanic episodes is so strong that I forget that I need rest in order to operate. While I sometimes find this aspect to be a...
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Employment and Mental Illness: Managing Expectations

One of the hardest aspects (for me) of having a mental illness is not just being productive, but managing to maintain productivity. This topic can truly be a “can of worms” as it entails a large contribution of social norms in the designation of someone as being “acceptably” productive.

For the sake of this discussion I’ll assume that the accepted level of productivity in this society is in the range of a...
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Bipolar Type II and Grieving: When Death Becomes Us

Death is the inevitable conclusion to life, as we know it. Experienced by all, loathed by most, this phenomenon is quite possibly the most important contributor to the shaping of anyone’s worldview.

The avoidance of death is the primary driving force behind life. The experience of a close relative or friend’s death can bring on some of the strongest emotions that human being is capable of producing, or it may numb you to the...
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Accepting Limitations: The Definition of Success

Accepting newfound limitations is one of the hardest parts of dealing with consistent psychological abnormalities. For those of us with a past of high functional proficiency, the transition is particularly difficult, and may require a modification in the way we view and define the concept of “success.”

For a long period in my life I had a deep desire to be the best at everything I attempted. I was a “gifted” child, so achieving...
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Suicide and the Search for Answers

Understandably, suicide is a touchy subject under any circumstances. Many of us have lost someone to their own hand, or at least know someone who has been affected by such a tragedy. There is little to be said that can alleviate the aftershock of a suicide, but there inevitably comes the discussion of signs. Was it predictable? Preventable? Did it happen with little to no warning? It is unfortunate...
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