What I Would Tell My Younger Self About Mental Illness

An embarrassing photo of me as a kid. I would also tell myself to NOT be a Pirates fan.  ;-)

I came across an article on NPR's website a few days ago which reported:

The number of kids who struggle with thoughts of suicide or who attempt to kill themselves is rising. New research, published Wednesday in Pediatrics, finds children ages 5 to 17 visited children's hospitals for suicidal thoughts or attempts about twice...


When Paranoia Comes for a Visit, I Shut the World Out

If I have any regular readers, I'd like to apologize for not blogging in about 2 months.

If I can be honest, I've been avoiding it.

Each time I've considered taking to the keyboard to write out some half-assed dribble with hope at the end, I realized that I was terrified and paranoid of what others might think or say about my work so I did what any brave soul would do--I hid and avoided responsibility.

I don't have...


Hitting a Wall: When Bipolar Disorder Affects Productivity

I'm angry with myself right now.

The kind of anger where you want to look at that person in the mirror and just tell them every nasty thing you think of them!

Maybe, you can relate.

Perhaps, you can't.

The reason I'm angry is because I've sat here looking at this screen for 20 minutes, have started writing numbers of pieces, and have been unable to come up with a damn thing.

It's frustrating and disheartening when you have so...


When Depression Tries to Silence You, Silence It by Opening Up

It's been a long winter in my mind and community.

I've been thinking about depression a lot, lately.

I don't know if it's because most of the days in January and February were filled with gray skies, rainy days, random snow storms, overwhelming flu, and frigid temperatures, but they probably didn't help anyone's moods.

Many people I know have been kissed by winter's cold, icy lips this season and it feels like many of us...


Good and Bad Ways to Cope with Depression

I feel consumed by darkness like the house in this photo

This winter, however, has felt frigid in both my heart and community.

The temperature, much like my moods, has been up and down leaving my body scrambling to adjust and often sick, achy, and utterly exhausted.

I've been in a seething, foul, and agitated state for what seems like weeks. I don't know for how long though because my memory seems to be under...


When Depression Lies to You, Remind Yourself of the Truth

A photo outside my house. I always feel the need to find light when my world feels dark.

I'm feeling a certain kind of darkness today. I can tell that an old friend has returned to visit.


I can tell my depression is visiting because of the following:
I'm Irritable
It's the kind of irritable that makes me like Dr. Jeckyl and Mr. Hyde. I am cranky, cantankerous, and honestly, I'm kind of a jackass....


When Your Doctor Fails You, Don’t Fail Yourself

I felt hope on my first visit to get back on medicine.

It's been almost 2 months since I've started taking medicine again.

At first, I was feeling relieved, better, and proud of myself for taking a step towards wellness and healing, but I've come to realize that the effects were more placebo than anything.

When I first met my "doctor" (she's actually a nurse practitioner) I thought our time together was a bit short (around...


Explore Creativity to Enhance Your Well-Being

“It is good to love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is well done.”
― Vincent van Gogh

Why I'm Creative

For the past few years, I've been slowly taking photos again and I'm noticing a great difference in my health, vitality, and my love for life through this process.

Taking pictures encourages me to stop, slow down, and observe...


Loving Yourself Through Self-Compassion

“Self-compassion is simply giving the same kindness to ourselves that we would give to others.”
—Christopher Germer, The Mindful Path to Self-Compassion

"Son, what would you say to a client if he or she were in the same situation?" my dad asked.

"Excuse me?" I asked a bit taken back by the insightful question.

He repeated himself, "What would you say to a client if he or she were in the same situation as you?"

"I'd probably tell them that we all make mistakes and their...