5 thoughts on “When my Mental Illness Convinces Me No One Can Understand My Pain

  • June 17, 2018 at 11:09 am

    Hello. I’m Karen and I have a newly 17 year old daughter who fits your diagnosis to a t. It’s Sunday and this last Thursday, we went to her 4th appointment with the psychologist. She has shown to me, and I have my own set of bipolar+ diagnoses, rapid cycling, she describes the disassociation that she feels and she definitely has depression and anxiety thrown in there but she denies being anxious but then describes it. I’m not certain of what her diagnosis will be once this psychologist meets with the psychiatrist. My daughter wants medication and I am very concerned about this. She’s only 17. I don’t want her on SSRI’s.

    Anyway, I wanted to tell you not to feel alone. I believe that once this all shakes out, she will have the same diagnosis as you.

    I know you must be taking meds for your bipolar. Are you taking other medications? I want to know what works for people like my daughter. It is an unusual diagnosis but not impossible to find others with the same type of mental issue.

    • June 17, 2018 at 12:06 pm

      Hi Karen,

      I’m sorry your daughter is going through this difficult time. I’ve taken different medications in the past but right now I just take two mood stabilizers: lithium and lamitrogine. I would like to be off Lithium due to the side effects but my psychiatrist says I need it to stay stable. Lamitrogine was the miracle drug for me. Before I took Lamitrogine, I was always either depressed, hypomanic, or manic. Once I started the med I felt like I met my real self for the first time – the self who is level. I still rapid cycle but it’s not nearly as bad now. I’ve taken medications for anxiety short term in the past. I’m afraid to start new meds since I’ve had a lot of side effects to different meds. Well, I hope that your daughter gets the help she needs, whatever that might look like for her. Thanks for reminding me I’m not alone.


  • June 18, 2018 at 2:28 pm

    Hi I relate to your issues I have DID anxiety disorder and panic attachs .I also think I may be bipolar but i can not go to therapy because of finances. I have times i have no control over eating and spending money buying things i dont really need. I have gotten into many financial situations because of this.I also self harm .Thanks

  • June 19, 2018 at 5:19 am

    Hi Anna,
    I suffer from recurring depressive episodes due to stress and anxiety, I understand this is not as severe as your mental health issues but feel I may have some insight into some of your pain.
    I am medicated and deal with life quite well most of the time even to the point of trying to assist my partner who has severe depressive dissorder.
    My biggest breakthrough came when I understood that a lot of my fears and anxiety moments actually occurred for most people and it comes down to how you process and deal with the anxiety and fears that really makes a difference. It can be very hard to rationalize the fear and stop yourself from the never ending spiral of mind games that make the situation worse and worse but this is what helped me the most. I pondered it, examined my own response to these situations and using meditative thoughts changed my own reactions. It took some time and may not work for everyone but it has helped me.
    I still find myself in situations where this does not work and I spiral down into the depths and need help getting out but this has changed my life. Hope it can help you too.

  • November 25, 2018 at 11:07 am

    Hi! I do have bipolar disorder, borderline personality, generalized anxiety, panic attacks, dissociation and maladaptive daydreaming which doctors can’t diagnose. The sad part of all this people don’t understand my world and I don’t understand the world.


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