4 thoughts on “A Roller Coaster Week In My Life With Mental Illnesses

  • May 21, 2018 at 2:09 am

    Hi Anna,
    I truly do empathize with your struggles because I have been through similar struggles and symptoms. When I was in my 20’s and 30’s especially, I had a very rough time with episodes of Major Depression, PTSD, and episodes of self harm and suicidal ideation. And like you, I was very busy with work, college classes, homework etc., but also managed to find time for therapy and a support group.
    I am going to assume you are very comfortable with your therapist and feel that the work is helpful but I also want to say that if my therapist had told me that he/she had been “trying to get you to change for 2 years,” I’d have been angry too!
    I don’t wish to cause you to think or feel badly about your therapist as maybe he was having an off day himself but I feel he was in error and that it COULD have cost him a client if you had quit! I mean, what you are dealing with (your mental health issues and whatever else) didn’t happen overnight so why would he think change would be so easily achieved? Another question I’d consider is, “Do I want to change or is that my therapist’s goal?” Just remember that you ARE working hard on things and are obviously successful on many fronts but everyone has those “rollercoaster rides” to varying degrees and after a while, the track ahead DOES tend to even out lol!
    Take care.

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    • May 21, 2018 at 8:05 am

      I’m glad you can relate and it seems like you are doing better now, which is great. I actually wrote this article a while ago and recently came across it and decided to post it. I stopped seeing that counselor 2 months ago. He kept saying periodically that it seemed like we weren’t a good fit, I was unhappy with him, we had difficulty understanding each other, and he felt like he didn’t have the right counseling skills to help me. I was just afraid to leave him and start over with someone new. He was the counselor who noticed I have other personalities and I felt like he was the only one who could help me see what was going and help me integrate. But seeing him caused me terrible anxiety and I was angry with him all the time. Since I stopped seeing him I have felt this huge weight off my shoulders. I don’t have to be angry anymore. I’m been more calm, confident, and happy. I started seeing a new counselor recently, who I liked so much better – I really like her as a person and she did an amazing job assessing me, but I didn’t really like her counseling techniques. I’m taking a break from her and trying to do things on my own for a while. I’m feeling pretty good about my skills in “counseling myself” and finding ways to take care of myself when I’m struggling.

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  • May 27, 2018 at 3:01 am

    Hey Anna,
    Yes, I am doing better than I was in years past, thank you.
    I am glad you seem to know what you need–I am not at all surprised because you obviously have a lot of self awareness!
    On that note, I want to add that I am so sorry if I overstepped my bounds by offering my thoughts and suggestions. I sincerely hope you will know I meant no offense!

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    • May 27, 2018 at 9:28 am

      No, I don’t feel like you overstepped your bounds, I appreciated your thoughts. 🙂

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