5 thoughts on “How Gaining and Losing a Borderline Personality Disorder Diagnosis Affected Me

  • April 10, 2018 at 6:49 pm

    DSM criteria #9 for BPD mentions ‘.. or severe dissociation’. Not all persons with BPD have criteria 9, but some do. Perhaps a prodding Q: Is a person with (severe) dissociation able to consent to sexual intercourse? Don’t answer if it feels like too much of a morality call to be answered from your position. In parts .. in relation to California SB-967. Governor Jerry Brown signed SB-967 into law 9/28/2014 with the narrow scope of (college) students.

    • April 10, 2018 at 9:56 pm

      Thanks for your comment. Yes, I know BPD can include dissociation, I just forgot to mention that in the article. As for your question, I’m not sure. I don’t know if I would qualify for “severe” dissociation since I’m co-conscious and I stay dominant 95% of the time. If I start to switch to a different personality I am aware and can flip myself back. So I could certainly consent. For someone who loses time and switches… I feel like it would depend on the person and how they interact with their alters.

      • April 11, 2018 at 1:31 am

        Thank you Annette. I find it inspiring that more people recover from BPD, and also share their success story.

  • April 12, 2018 at 1:01 am

    Hi Anna,
    Your posts are very thought-provoking and often resonate with me. In fact, there are parts of this one that we share similar experiences with.
    I too have heard and seen the stigma (even among some professionals) that can occur with a borderline personality disorder diagnosis. I have experienced it personally because one doctor who spent VERY limited time with me, during one hospitalization felt that it fit. I’m not particularly surprised given that people who are hospitalized on a psych unit are NOT at their best obviously!
    What DID and DOES surprise me (as well as frustrate/anger/sadden me) is that once a person HAS this diagnosis, it tends to follow you around and can be INCREDIBLY HARD to have removed from medical records–if not impossible. The other thing I find frustrating is that this diagnosis can be so very similar to P.T.S.D. and I, as well as my current and past therapists, my regular medical doctor etc., believe that although I do have several bpd symptoms, they also happen to be symptoms of ptsd and were/are there because I was abused for years and dealing with it. My regular therapist and others who know me well do not feel that I meet the criteria for bpd. For me, that is a relief because of the negativity surrounding the diagnosis but also because I just don’t like labels–including ptsd!
    I think it is sad that YOU feel sad at having lost that diagnosis because whether you have it or not, you are so much MORE than your diagnosis, Anna! I can tell that you are an incredible young woman, one who is very intelligent, a gifted writer, a diligent student, an ethical counselor and a person of integrity. I would venture to say that you have good friends and that you like to laugh and have fun and that you likely have a creative side.
    Maybe you too can learn to find more of your identity through positive attributes? It doesn’t mean you have to banish any accurate diagnoses and who knows, maybe bpd IS accurate for you or maybe it’s not but you are so much MORE than your labels. I hope you embrace those positive things too! I am trying to do the same!

    • April 12, 2018 at 4:07 am

      Thank you for your compliment on my articles, I enjoy your comments too. Yes I was frustrated about how hard it was to get rid of a BPD diagnosis and how it followed me, but then I started to accept it. Thank you for your compliments about me as a person, it’s very moving. The nature of writing articles for this website is that I’m writing about my mental illnesses and not about the other things that make up me, so I keep focusing on negative attributes of me. But a mentor of mine told me Monday how I should try to focus less on my mental illnesses and focus my mind on other things – so that is my current goal. Thank you again for your encouragement. I hope you are able to embrace more positive things about yourself too.


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