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Apologizing To My Body…

I have been writing my little fingers to the bone.

Not here, I’m afraid…

Though I’d love to be here with you, instead, I’m writing reams about body image ~ mine.

It’s exhausting and triggering. Working on recovering from my eating disorder with psychologist, Kim Watson, Ph.D involves reading two workbooks ~ on body image and self-esteem.

Every day, for at least one hour ~ usually more ~ I do challenging writing exercises that resonate in places I don’t really like going.

I spent last week in the past…

For me and my body, the past is not a pretty place.

4 thoughts on “Apologizing To My Body…

  • January 28, 2012 at 2:40 pm

    Hi, Sandy,

    I think we all have something to apologize to ourselves for. We have a habit of treating others better than ourselves. And this is sad.


    • January 28, 2012 at 5:37 pm

      Hi Sheila,

      Good to hear from you. And you’re right. Except I’m a perfectionist and my default mode is to find fault with myself. What astonished me about this conversation was the dynamic. I addressed my body, or the chair wherein my body was residing. Then, I sat in that chair and as my body, addressed myself. I answered myself. I gave my body its own voice.

      It was a very powerful and empowering exercise. Sad or not, I’m learning that all these so called paradigms can change with work.

      Hope all is well with you.


  • January 29, 2012 at 9:24 am

    this sounds super powerful, and maybe something i will be able to do once i get a bit more brave. because it’s needed.

    i’m having lots of layers peeled away from my onion, as you might say, sandy. it’s great but terrifying all at once.

    today is moving day…..moving in with my partner. surrounded by boxes. been a challenging week!!

    • January 29, 2012 at 9:52 am

      Hi Julie,

      This week I’ve been concentrating on acknowledging my positive qualities, experiencing pleasure, and unconditional love. You have stated several major reasons why you should feel positive about yourself. I hope you do.

      You’re peeling away the layers. That takes courage. Your moving out of your present home and beginning a new relationship, which is perhaps the bravest act anyone can do. And knowing you, it will be an exciting journey. You will grow in all kinds of new ways, ways you cannot even imagine. How exciting.

      My conversation ~ and it was a back and forth discussion ~ was really remarkable. I love this technique and the fact that my psychologist is quite eclectic and willing to work in ways that are totally different than Dr. Bob, my psychiatrist.

      Wishing you a smooth move and a great beginning. Let me know when you’re settled and perhaps we can have that cup of coffee!



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