It takes a lot of courage to admit to battling a drinking problem, especially in the public eye, but Chrissy Teigen has done just that. In a recent interview, she cut right to the chase and said “I was, point blank, just drinking too much.”

Revealing that she can’t “just have one drink,” the model/actress claims that no one brought her drinking to her attention. Instead, it just seemed like a routine that many celebrities fall into.

Describing her experience, Teigen told Cosmopolitan, “I got used to being in hair and makeup and having a glass of wine. Then that glass of wine would carry over into me having one before the awards show. And then a bunch at the awards show. And then I felt bad for making kind of an ass of myself to people that I really respected. And that feeling, there’s just nothing like that. You feel horrible. It’s not a good look for me, for John, for anybody.”

In discussing what it’s like to be a celebrity attending major events, Teigen asks the interview, “Imagine everything we have. Everything is there, always. I don’t know how to go to an awards show and not drink.”

In addition to her drinking, Teigen says that she takes medications to help with symptoms associated with anxiety and postpartum depression. Despite the potentially dangerous combination with alcohol, the star says, “nobody really brought it up to me. They just assumed that it was OK because I always felt OK the next morning. I knew in my heart it wasn’t right. It makes you very short with people. People think it’s cutesy and fun to go on these boozy brunches, but there’s more to it. I’ve never once been like, ‘I’m sure glad I had that boozy brunch!'”

A recent vacation to Bali, Indonesia opened her eyes, however, to how she has been living her life. While attending a wellness retreat as a family (she is married to John Legend and they share 1-year-old daughter, Luna) and she abstained from alcohol for the whole trip.

The 31-year-old mother explained, “I woke up feeling amazing. My skin felt amazing. I was just so happy. I used to think it was kind of nutty to have to go totally sober,” she added, “but now I get it. I don’t want to be that person … I have to fix myself.”

Some have criticized her being drinking and she’s been addressing these cruel comments through Twitter. It’s too bad that social media has allowed us to be so vocal about someone else’s struggle. It’s become too easy to have an opinion about celebrities (or anything, for that matter) and share our judgments and criticisms publicly. It can quickly turn into cyberbullying which is why I think it’s brave that Teigen shared this.

I personally hope she does well in her journey to sobriety. As a mother to twins who are similar in age to her daughter, I can understand how overwhelming it can be to parent children of this age (I have six kids, after all!). I’m glad she’s speaking up. Who knows how her honesty could impact someone else’s life?