Prince was an incredibly private man so, no doubt, he’s probably be pretty unhappy to know that his ex-wife, Mayte Garcia, has written a tell-all book in which she describes their life together, including details about some disturbing incidents and the loss of their newborn son.

Never Saw Drug Use But…

The rock legend was found lifeless in an elevator at his Paisley Park estate in April 2016. As if that wasn’t shocking enough, it appears that his death was caused by an accidental overdose of the prescription painkiller, Fentanyl. In the days following this revelation, many people spoke out saying that they had never seen the musician taking anything.

In an excerpt from the upcoming memoir, The Most Beautiful: My Life with Prince, Garcia writes: “I never actually saw Prince doing drugs. He didn’t want me to. I’m sure he knew what my reaction would be.” Still, in hindsight, she can identify times when things just didn’t add up.

During an interview, Garcia explained: “Looking back now and being much older I can see it was something else. I never saw him do anything – not even take an aspirin.”

Yet, just weeks after the couple were married in 1996, two whole decades before his death, something unusual happened. Prince was rushed to the hospital where his stomach was pumped. He had been found unconscious but his bodyguard claimed it was due to mixing wine and aspirin.

Another eyebrow-raising incident involved Prince asking Garcia to go back to his hotel room and commit to a strange request. He wanted her to “flush some pills [that he told her he’d left there] down the toilet.” Despite the oddness of the situation, she did what he asked and never questioned what it was.

Death of Newborn Son

Later that same year, Prince and Garcia welcomed a son. There had been signs that something wasn’t right with the pregnancy but, ultimately, he was born by c-section and, what began as a celebratory moment, turned into something tragic. Their little boy was born with Pfeiffer syndrome, a rare genetic disorder.

In her book, Garcia describes the devastating chapter in their lives. “I don’t know how to describe the look on my husband’s face. Pure joy,” she writes. “And then they held the baby up to those harsh lights. The elation on my husband’s face turned to pure terror.”

“They brought the baby over to us. He was curled on his side, gasping shallow little gulps of air. Because there were no lids to blink, his eyes looked startled and dry. I caught hold of his tiny hand, saying over and over, ‘Mama loves you, Mama’s here.’”

He died at six days old.

Garcia struggled to cope with the loss but never told her husband that she felt suicidal and adds: “I started to think he knew, because my Vicodin kept disappearing. I assumed he was hiding them to keep me from hurting myself. In retrospect, I don’t know what to think.”

Starting a Dialogue

It sounds like they both struggled to find a way to deal with their emotions surrounding the death of their son. Of course, we cannot and should not assume anything. It almost feels bad knowing such intimate details about Prince’s life since he spent so much time protecting his privacy but, maybe, knowing these things can create a dialogue.

It sounds like there were signs that something wasn’t right but the people surrounding the star didn’t want to make assumptions or broach the topic. If someone had questioned him about certain unusual things, maybe he would still be alive today. It’s a lesson that we can all learn from.