No matter what you think of Michael Jackson, it can’t be easy to be one of the three children he left behind when we died of an accidental prescription drug overdose in 2009. We haven’t heard much about the King of Pop’s two sons but his 18-year-old daughter, Paris, has been making headlines for several years now.
Three years ago, the sad news of Paris’ suicide attempt became public and it was clear that she was really struggling.
During a sit down with Rolling Stone magazine, the teen revealed that the highly publicized attempt to take her own life was not an isolated event. “It was just once that it became public,” Paris she said. “It was just self-hatred, low self-esteem, thinking that I couldn’t do anything right, not thinking I was worthy of living anymore.”
Paris also revealed that she had been cutting and battling with depression. Her self-esteem had suffered after enrolling in a private school in seventh grade and feeling like she didn’t fit in with kids her own age. Instead, she started hanging out with “a lot of older people doing a lot of crazy things” and started “doing a lot of things that 13-, 14-, 15-year-olds shouldn’t do.”
Reflecting on that time period, she said that she had tried to grow up too fast and ended up not being “that nice of a person.”
It takes a lot of maturity and growth to admit something like that. There are people who will go through their entire life without ever being so honest so it’s great that, at just 18, she’s learning to be so self-aware.
Tragically, Paris also revealed that when she was 14 years old, she was sexually assaulted by a “complete stranger.” She explained: “I don’t wanna give too many details but it was not a good experience at all, and it was really hard for me, and, at the time, I didn’t tell anybody.”
That must have been so horrifying and traumatizing for a young woman who was already dealing with so much in her life. It’s so sad that, like many victims of sexual crimes, she remained silent about the attack.
Explaining that her famous father also struggled with depression, Paris says she found peace while finishing high school at a therapeutic school in Utah. While she had been prescribed antidepressants (the same her father had taken), she is no longer on medication and feels like a “completely different person.”
Now, she’s turning her focus to a potential future in the modeling industry. Some might find that career path stressful due to the amount of scrutiny models can face but Paris seems ready to take it all in stride.
She said: “Plenty of people think I’m ugly, and plenty of people don’t but there’s a moment when I’m modeling where I forget about my self-esteem issues and focus on what the photographer’s telling me — and I feel pretty. And in that sense, it’s selfish.”
It’s not selfish if it makes you feel good! It’s great to see that she has found a way to find happiness without engaging in self-destructive behaviors. Let’s hope we see her smiling face on magazine covers in the near future!