In a memoir to be released tomorrow, Janis Winehouse-Collins, details her relationship with her famous daughter, the late Amy Winehouse, and says that she does not live with regrets. Despite how everything turned out, she seems to have found peace with it all and chooses to focus on remembering how it felt to be the talented woman’s mother.
In Loving Amy: A Mother’s Story, Janis recounts how difficult it was to watch Amy spiral into drug and alcohol addiction. She says that she felt helpless as she watched her once adoring daughter turn into a stranger.
The 60-year-old also describes seeing the rigors of fame leaving the “Rehab” singer in agony. Once fun-loving and happy, Amy lost her “wonderful sense of humor” and descended into a dark place. Sadly, she never really found her way back to her former self.
Ultimately, Amy was found unresponsive in her home on July 23, 2011. It was later discovered that she had died, at age 27, of alcohol poisoning. Despite this dismal end, Janis does feel that there’s anything she could change.
She explained: “There was nothing I could have done that was different. She wasn’t the Amy that I know and brought up and that’s what was horrible. Basically, it was the addiction that changed her… I was helpless, that’s the worst part. You want to be there, but we are limited with what we can do… But I was always there for her, I listened to her, she would phone me, we would speak, I was always there.”
After losing her daughter, Janis remarried but is currently suffering from Multiple Sclerosis which the Mayo Clinic describes as “a potentially disabling disease of the brain and spinal cord (central nervous system).” She wanted to share her story while she can “still remember” the details.
It must have been painful but cathartic for Janis to put her thoughts and emotions down in writing. To lose a child is a terrible tragedy and, for this to happen in such a public way, had to be extremely difficult.
Loving Amy: A Mother’s Story will be released in hardcover on January 12, 2016.