Today you will encounter a new voice on this blog (mine). I have to tell you, I am more than a little nervous about it. In fact, until I decided to get over myself, I was a bit paralyzed by fear. I am not new to blogging, having spent years blogging about Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and the mental health problems that come along for a ride with a chronic illness. Now that you know the tiniest bit about my background, I shall tell you my name — it’s Laura. And so, you can call me Laura.
I’ve been obsessing over this topic of celebrities, for a few days. Trying to figure out who is relevant right now. And while there’s loads of celebrity stuff happening (jealous fights, falling off the wagon, megalomania), I am not really connecting to any of it today. What I am feeling is a fairly intense bout of Stage Fright. We aren’t talking about sweaty palms here. This is full on ‘deer caught in the headlights’ kind of paralysis-where I temporarily forgot my name. I know it sounds ridiculous, after all you can’t see me. I’m just the girl behind the computer screen. But there is a very loud voice in my brain telling me that you are all judging me – wanting me to fail.
So what got me over it? Great question. It was a quote by Canada’s greatest musician Glenn Gould:
I detest audiences, I think they are a force of evil
And I had to laugh. Because I have been a big fan of this blog (and its readers) for a long time. And I know that you are not evil – but warm and welcoming and very supportive. And so, I realized that I was just being silly. I know that you will let me get the kinks out – and that I will eventually find the flow in my writing again. I will learn about relevant celebrities – and won’t force semi obscure references (by long dead Canadian icons) on you, after today.
Alicia has left me with feeling like I need to step up my game. Celebrity Psychings is such an informative and excellent blog, that is fun and intelligently written. I’m going to have to work really hard in order to stay in step with her. If you miss her as much as I do – you can still find her at Your Body, Your Mind.
I am going to do my very best to carry on the tradition of excellence. Thank you to everyone at Psych Central for making me feel at home. And a special thanks to Alicia for letting me know I can do this. Your faith in my skills means the world to me.
And readers – I can’t wait to learn more about you. I hope you will write a lot of comments telling me what you think on the topic of the day. And I’m totally cool with you disagreeing (as long as you are polite, after all I am Canadian) because I love a good debate.
** Photo Source – Flickr via Andrew E. Larsen