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Against My Better Judgement I’m Starting Effexor Again

During previous acute episodes of severe depression and anxiety the only medication that has worked to pull me out of it is Effexor. I have tried many different medications for depression but nothing has the same result as Effexor has previously.

I am not very happy about it, but right now the positives outweigh the negatives by far.

Stopping Effexor was the best decision I could have made because it had become useless and...
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“I’ll See You In The Mornin’ Mommy, and I’ll Be Good!”

The kids were being wild and I was a little stressed. I was trying to get them settled a full hour after bedtime had come and gone. They just wouldn't settle down. What could I do?

After shuffling my youngest into his bed for the 3rd time, my 8 year old son quietly mumbles from his room "mommy, can I get another kiss?"

Absolutely! I go into his room where he is anxiously waiting for...
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The Connecticut Shootings: A Mother’s Point of View

I was at Kohls with a friend on Friday finishing up my Christmas shopping when I heard about the shooting in Connecticut. My husband texted me "did you hear about the school shooting?!?" Instantly I started freaking out. My son is in high school and two little ones in elementary school, one in 3rd grade and one in kindergarten.

I said no, and asked what happened. It felt like an eternity before he responded...
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My Kids Made My Day Better With Some Morning Hugs and Kisses

Mornings around here are usually really crazy. Typically my 8 year old is, okay in the mornings, bright eyed and bushy tailed like his father. I don't get that at all as I am a terrible and grumpy person in the morning. My 5 year old daughter takes after me. She is typically cranky, fussy, whiney, and I have to drag her out of bed.

Sometimes it's not that bad but a usual morning here...
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My Final Exam Is Fast Approaching and I’m Freaking Out

I have been in Real Estate class for the past 6 weeks and I am ready for it to be over. My brain hurts and my confidence is nearly non-existent. I don't know why I am so full of doubt but I think I need to relax, seriously.

When it was mid-term time 2 weeks ago I was freaking out too. I was having panic attacks and my anxiety level was through...
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It’s Christmas Time and Happiness Fills Our Home

I love December! The best thing about this month is Christmas. There are so many wonderful things that I couldn't list them all if I wanted to. The best part (right now) is my mood is up and my home is happy.

Every year we turn on the Christmas music, make some hot cocoa, decorate the tree, and then dance around the house as a family. It is probably the most joyable night of the...
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I Don’t Want To Be Admitted Again, I’m Terrified

I'm losing it very quickly. Life is getting to be too hard. No matter what I do or how hard I try to do things right, I do it all wrong.

My husband has been on the third shift and taking classes 5 days a week since August. He's been on third shift longer, but I have felt the major squeeze for about 3 months. I am done. I am scared.

A couple months ago...
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Why Can’t I Be “That” Woman?

Sometimes I look around and I wonder why I can't seem to get it together. The laundry isn't quite complete, the counters aren't quite clean enough, I sometimes skip bath night, and dinner often consists of instant mashed potatoes and a quick marinade chicken.

My kids yell for clean pants and my husband hollars for clean underwear. I ponder what the nights "fend for yourself" meal will consist of, and I hang my head...
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Decision Making Cripples My Mind

I have recently started working for a Realtor, who is also a friend of mine. I started working with her because I am very interested in working in Real Estate. I had not given it a great deal of thought yet, but I wanted to look into it to see if it was something I could possibly do.

I have not had a successful job, ever. I have always faced challenges any time I started working...
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