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Decision Making Cripples My Mind

bipolar momI have recently started working for a Realtor, who is also a friend of mine. I started working with her because I am very interested in working in Real Estate. I had not given it a great deal of thought yet, but I wanted to look into it to see if it was something I could possibly do.

I have not had a successful job, ever. I have always faced challenges any time I started working in one way or another. That is why I filed for SSDI and was eventually approved. I just haven’t been able to handle working.

Well, my dad and my husband had always tried to get me to give real estate a try but given my history I did not want to pursue it. Who wants to do something when it feels as though failure is imminent? Not me!

Anyway, after starting this new position I also started taking real estate classes to get my license, and now the opportunities are endless.

I have been talking with my father, boss, and instructor trying to determine what might be a good fit for me. I can either work as a licensed assistant, a buyer’s agent, seller’s agent, property manager, or a commercial agent.

That is just too much! I talked to my boss and told her of my dilemma and my inability to make any decisions. She has vowed to work closely with me in every aspect of this journey to help me determine where I feel most comfortable. She knows of my struggles and she is pretty certain she will be able to help me find what fits me just right.

On the other hand, I have not worked full time in 3 years. That is very scary for me and it is a huge step to take. She wants me to dive in nose first as soon as I get my license, work full time, and really get my feet wet. I feel like it’s one of those situations where I won’t really know until I give it a try, but I am still scared to death.

With the right guidance, someone behind me who understands my struggles and my strengths, and time to figure out what might work for me I think I may stand a chance at success for the first time in my life.

I’m going to do this and try my hardest to make certain the lines of communication stay clear and open so that if I start to slip or lose control, my boss can help me through it. She strongly feels I will be really good in real estate regardless of which division I choose to work in and her determination to help me succeed is inspiring.

The only problem I have is when I think about the decision making process I have in front of me, I feel like it is crippling my mind.

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Decision Making Cripples My Mind


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, B. (2012). Decision Making Cripples My Mind. Psych Central. Retrieved on June 1, 2020, from


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