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Archives for June, 2012

Family

Why Does He Protest When I Spend Money On Myself?

Individuals with Bipolar have problems with money. It is a fact. It is not something I have ever been proud of and something I have struggled with for years. I have made remarkable progress when it comes to spending money, however, I am still under my husband's microscope when it comes to any spending.

After our bankruptcy, we made dramatic (possibly extreme) changes to our spending habits. Our budget was squeezed, our money distributed...
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General

Do You Ever Want To Run Away?

I've had a very hard week. When I say very hard, I mean harder than I have had in a long time. I don't even know where to begin.

I already posted about my son's most recent evaluation for services relating to Autism. That was incredibly difficult and something I am still struggling with. It will take time to adjust and accept everything, but I am working...
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Anxiety

Choked By Terror: Midnight Panic

I was laying in bed last night in my perfect comfy spot. Suddenly, my body started to become numb and I felt as though my mind was separating from my body. I could feel my heart start to race and I broke out into a sweat; the panic set in quickly. I tried to move and I couldn't, yet I was wide awake. I thought I was dying.

My son began to cry and it yanked me out...
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General

Getting Ready For The Move – Bring On The Madness!

We have stuff everywhere. My husband is a major (and I mean MAJOR!) pack-rat. He is like, on the fence between pack-rat and hoarder. Well, if there is even a fence there.

He keeps everything, anything, pointless and needless items, they are everywhere! He also doesn't keep them neat and tidy in boxes stacked somewhere. No, he just throws stuff everywhere with the hope that I will clean...
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Hyper-Sexual Episodes: Let’s Talk About Sex!

Okay, I know for many people that sex can be a majorly taboo subject, but I am going to talk about it anyway. Many people wonder and don't understand how hyper-sexuality can affect relationships so I am going to try to discuss my own experiences when my bipolar takes a hyper-sexual swing.

By definition, hyper-sexuality is basically an increased need for sex. If you Google it, the very basic dictionary definition is easy...
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Being “The Other Woman” Is Not On The List Of My Proudest Moments

I was visiting a friend this week who told me that her live-in boyfriend was talking frequently with an ex-girlfriend. I was immediately overwhelmed with sadness and a little bit of shame remembering when I was "that girl."

I tried to explain to her that he is with her and nothing was going to change that. Regardless, her pain was still quite visible. I was hurting deeply for her.

That moment got me thinking about when...
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Autism: Bring On The Terrible Two’s

I have been through the terrible two's three times already. All of my kids were actually pretty good. They would throw the occasional temper tantrum and be little snot monsters on occasion, but overall my kids were awesome toddlers. I always counted my blessings; I figured maybe if I did a good enough job and tried to be as patient as possible they would learn patience too. They did, but...
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Organizing An Unorganized Mess

I am great at getting organized. I can create a system to keep everything where it is supposed to be and it would work great - if only I could keep up with it. My mind often gets so chaotic that even though I know where things are supposed to be, it seems daunting to put everything where it belongs.

I have decided to hire help, a professional organizer.

She...
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