Archives for March, 2012

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I Am Okay! Now I Have To Understand Narcolepsy

After publishing my last post I had found myself unable to write again. It was probably the toughest post I have ever written and published. There are so many feelings that surround a sexual assault, and it took me a little while to sort through that. It's okay though, I worked through my issues and I'm doing better now. I'm ready to write again!

Initially when I started seeing my p-doc she thought I had narcolepsy. It...
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Rape: How It Affects Me Now – Ten Years Later

Ten years ago I was violently raped and beaten by a friend. This happened in my home, in my bedroom, in my bed. While I don't wish to go into great detail of this particular event in my life, a recent session with my p-doc has brought to light a problem I have had recently with allowing strangers, even family, into my home.

While discussing these fears, we were going over the severe anxiety I...
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My SSDI Attorney Is A Jerk!

My SSDI hearing is fast approaching, April 25. I'm very anxious about it and overwhelmed with anger and frustration with my attorney. He's being a real jerk.

My doctor and SSA both determined my date of onset as August 2004, after the birth of my...
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Sibling Love Is Awesome!

This morning we had some pretty intense storms. I don't get up with my oldest so when the 6am storms hit I realized he didn't wake me for a ride to the bus stop. I was sad. I did lay in bed though for some time watching my bedroom light up and listening to the rumble.

The baby woke and was quite disturbed by the loud sounds he was unfamiliar with, but my other two...
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It’s Not You, It’s Me

Those are words everyone hates. Anyone who has ever dated has heard that phrase a time or two. It's a terrible phrase and it should be banned from lips worldwide.

For me right now, those words could not be more true. I am so frustrated I just don't know what to do.

My husband is so angry and irritated with me. I have been dealing with so much lately and it has been very overwhelming emotionally. When...
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I Had A Medication Induced Psychotic Episode

I had started a new medication 2 weeks ago called Latuda. It hasn't been approved for Bipolar but is very helpful in patients with Schizophrenia. The first 9 days went very well aside from some mild agitation. I was calm and collected, relaxed, and felt really good.

Then I reached day 10.

Friday afternoon while I was fixing dinner I became extremely agitated. I felt like I was crawling out of my skin, I was...
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New Diagnoses, New Medicine, New Attitude

Since finding my new doctor, most of our time has been spent trying to decide which medication will work to help with the Bipolar and anxiety. Now that we have that under control, we have ventured into further treating any other underlying conditions that may be making my life miserable. Then she said it.

Borderline Personality Disorder.

Wow. That was all I could think. I sat in a slight state of disbelief for a...
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