Archives for November, 2011

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Almost Stable

I have a wonderful psychiatrist now. She is very kind and caring, she allows me to have a voice about my treatments, and she doesn't really pressure me about medications. I love that about her.

I am now on welbutrin as well as the saphris and cogentin for side effects. I recently also started cholesterol medication. It's so frustrating sometimes, but since I got a pill sorter for AM and PM medications, it's...
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Too Many Medications!

I think I am coming closer to reality these days. It feels pretty good too.

With all the med switching and withdrawal and my oldest coming into town for Thanksgiving, it hasn't been too terribly bad. However, my "moments" *(those times I wish I could take back what said/did) seem to be more frequent for me now.  I haven't been the best wife, and I certainly don't have any patience, at all, whatsoever.

I am...
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Staying Positive Is Impossible For Me!!

Being totally off effexor has been tough for me, but I am now trying Saphris - the full 10mg. It's messing with me so much that I still feel drunk this morning after I took it. I'm not sure if it is all the meds I'm taking with it to counteract the restlessness. That's is one of biggest side effects. This morning it is so bad I'm even having a hard time...
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I’m Falling Apart Without My Effexor, I Cannot Stop Crying

I can be irresponsible with money, we all can. I can be moody and irrational, but we all can be at times. I can be emotional and overbearing, I can be misunderstood and frequently have a problem with misunderstanding others, but we all can.

So, since I am suffering from mental illness, does that mean every single flaw and mistake, moody and emotional day, needs to be pointed out and...
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How Being A Mom Can Be Educational – Let’s Have Fun!

My 7 year old son tells me, "mommy, you're so lucky you don't have to go to school. It must be awesome not having to learn all day every day".

I began laughing and responded "oh son, you have no idea. You never quit learning when you grow up, you just get to learn different things." He then says, "well name 3 things you learned today!"

I laughed and went back to cooking dinner. I took...
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Family

Healing A Fragile Relationship: My Son Is Doing Well Now

My relationship with my 14 year old son was getting very fragile. With everything he was going through inside, I was very concerned for him. I was also concerned for myself and my ability to keep it together for his sake. I haven't done too bad.

He moved in with his father 6 weeks ago. So far it is going very well. After speaking to his father's fiance I have learned a lot about the relationship...
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A Comment Changed My Life, I’m Back!!

I have not had a good week, at all. In fact, I've been doing really bad. We've all been sick with a severe cold here, and that combined with med changes I've been a mess. I even began to wonder if I wanted to continue to blog. I was digging myself deeper into a hole that I couldn't find my way out of. It has been really bad. Until I read

"....I have...
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