Archives for July, 2011

General

It’s Time To Fire My Psychiatrist!

I have been having a very hard time the past week or so and I have written about some of it.  After a few days of hardly sleeping and everything compounding on top of me I sorta lost it yesterday.  I couldn't stop crying and I felt suffocated by stress.  I was falling apart.

I called my psychiatrist and she brought me in.  I started telling her about what...
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General

Hanging Out On The Manic Fence

Sometimes I wonder why I end up teetering between a manic episode and a depressive episode.  It really makes no sense.  Maybe it is my meds keeping me on the brink of insanity, but close enough to the sane line that it drives me nuts.

I can feel it coming, I can see it from a mile away.  Well, the mania anyway.  The depression is not so obvious.  It takes about a week before...
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General

One Week Left – Then The Kids Go Back To School!

I am excited, next Monday my 6 year old goes back to school.  My daughter is starting pre-k sometime during the week as well.  I love having my kids home but the stress of them fighting constantly is driving me bonkers.

Why do siblings insist on teasing one another every waking moment of every day? It's so frustrating!

My oldest has freshman orientation Thursday and that makes me a little anxious. ...
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Depression

Grief Has Taken Over My Heart – Accepting Death

When I was nine I experienced my first major loss.  My cousin, 23 and 2 days away from marrying his high school sweetheart, was shot and killed.  He was a bank manager, and startled a man robbing the bank while he was working.  I was devastated, he was a very big part of my life.  To this day, I have never gotten over the moment my father told me...
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Family

Creative Discipline Works

After my previous rant I would like to take some time to allow people a peek into my "real" every day life.

I admit, I probably made myself sound a lot more horrific than I really am.  While I am very quick to admit I am not afraid to spank my children and use various methods of discipline, 6 years ago I made a firm choice to be a better parent.  I decided not...
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Family

If I Could Tell Every “Perfect Parent” To Bite Me – I Would!

Okay so clearly my last post sparked quite a debate.  I should have known better.  So I would like to rant, because I can.  That is why I write this blog.  So here goes my raw and unedited attempt at redemption.  Not that it is needed, but my image of an "abusive mother" which has been accidentally portrayed needs to be corrected.  Whoops!  Go figure, I babbled a little too much

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Family

I Remember Being 13, It Sucked!

I remember being 13.  It sucked.  My parents didn't want to (or rather couldn't) take care of me, and I bounced around from one house to another hoping to find somewhere to belong.  It never happened.

My niece is spending some time with me this week, she is reminding me of myself daily.  She lives with my parents, and both of her parents are unable to take care of her.  Well, maybe it's partial...
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