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Archives for April, 2011

General

Could My Son Be Bipolar Too?

I have written a lot about my oldest son, and how proud I am of him.  I am proud of all of my children, but he is a teenager now and he amazes me almost daily.  He brought home his report card a few weeks ago and had two F's.  We did what parents do and grounded him, limited his phone and computer use, and increased his chores.  We've stayed on top of...
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Bipolar

Taking A Ride On The Medication Roller Coaster

After spending a great deal of time riding this fun medication roller coaster I have been on, I had decided to wean off of the Effexor and begin taking Lithium.  My doctor and I had gone back and forth a lot about this, and we finally decided it was best.  Unfortunately, nothing ever goes as planned - well, for me anyway.

I managed to pull myself down to mg of Effexor XR...
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Bipolar

I Finally Get To Be First!

As a woman struggling with bipolar, it can be very hard when I need something to control my spending.  Sometimes, well okay, often, I feel I desperately need something when in fact I really don't.  It might be something as small as a new candle, or a new hairbrush, or something like shoes or jeans.  I would go a little overboard on the kids' clothes, always getting stuff on sale, or something that was...
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Family

A Healing Gesture

I was pretty heartbroken over the recent shopping event with my husband.  I was lost and not to sure where to put my emotions or how to handle what I felt.  It isn't often I feel so much anguish and can't do anything with it.  So I looked for support.

I was talking with my cousin who is much older than I, and has a great deal more life experience than I have had.  I...
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Depression

Sometimes, It Hurts So Much To Be Last

I am very careful to make sure my husband and children always have everything they need, and most of what they want.  If the kids need clothes or shoes, they get it.  If my husband loses weight and needs new jeans, I take him for new jeans, and if he needs shoes he gets shoes.  When it comes to dentist and doctors appointments I am very diligent in making sure I stay on...
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Family

Teenagers, Oh My!

I was watching a show last night "My Teenager's A Nightmare" and I must say I was shocked at these kids' behavior!  I was taken back by the aggression and fighting going on in this house with the parents and these sisters that were 14 and 12. I was asking myself two questions, who is the parent, and why is everyone so bitter, angry, and abusive?  Then I began to...
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Family

I Am A Very Proud Mom!

At 14 years old he stands 5'8" and weighs 135lbs.  He has dark hair, stunning green eyes, gorgeous dimples, and a smile that can steal anyone's heart.  He's so scrawny you can see his every muscle, and he eats every thing he can get his hands on.  He is my son.

I was only a year older than him, 15, when I got the news I was pregnant.  It was shocking to say the very least.  It was...
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General

Okay – I’m Ready To Be A Survivor Again!

The past month or so things have not exactly been easy around here, and they only got worse yesterday when I had to take my 6 year old to the ER with what appeared to be seizures.  After a head CT everything checked out okay, thank goodness, but he still has to see a neurologist to figure out what this weird thing going on with his eyes is.

At that moment, I threw my...
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Depression

I Have Accepted Defeat

I feel battered, beaten, and broken.  I feel defeated.  I feel overwhelmed with self hate and despair.  I feel crippled emotionally, and numb mentally.  I feel lost somewhere between reality and a dream.  I feel like crawling into a hole and staying there for the next few months.  I want to pack my bags and run as far away as possible.  I wish I could escape all of this but there...
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