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Archives for February, 2011

Family

Our Family Vacation: Peace, Love and Sun Kissed Mountains!

It's Vacation Time!!!  We came up to the mountains for a week of fun with the kids, and arrived yesterday.  This morning I woke up and I was not exactly in the best mood from two days of packing, traveling, nonsense, and fighting from the kids, but I was stunned at how quickly my cranky "don't talk to me" irritable mood changed.

In an attempt to soften the blow of such a terrible mood, I drew the curtain...
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General

The Truth, The Whole Truth, and Nothing But The Truth: Why I Write What I Write

When I was diagnosed with Bipolar I will admit, I was a little scared but also felt an incredible sense of relief.  I had answers but I didn't know what to do.

I looked online for support for mothers and women specifically struggling with Bipolar and found very little support.  There are books and support systems out there for the general public that talk about bipolar, but what about my marriage? What...
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Bipolar

Are My Antidepressants Causing More Harm Than Good?

Is the antidepressant that has always helped me so much the reason I am struggling now? I have been thinking a lot about the medications I am on, and I am wondering how much my antidepressants are impacting my mood.

Prior to my diagnoses, I spent 15 years going on and off antidepressants.  It was very difficult for me and it seemed as though I was just "depressed" all the time.  Every time I would start the antidepressants,...
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Bipolar

The Bipolar Wife: Infidelity – A Painful Consequence of Mania

I have repeatedly asked myself "who is really to blame when we choose to do stupid things as a result of a manic episode?"

I don't have any legitimate answers to that question, which is probably why I keep asking myself over and over again the same question.  I do have some theories though, so here I go ranting again!

A few years ago (prior to my diagnoses) I cheated on my husband.  Yes *gasp* I...
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Bipolar

I Don’t Hide Behind Shame, I’m A Survivor!

I was talking to a woman whom I admire a great deal, and we were discussing shame. That's when it hit me, I think many people out there are genuinely ashamed of being mentally ill.
But why?  If you spend years struggling to understand what is so "different" about your life (as I did) and you finally realize what's going on, why be ashamed of it?  I think everyone should embrace it, learn...
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Bipolar

Tantrums: Do I Really Act Like That?!?

I must admit the tantrums I often have remind me somewhat of the tantrums my four year old daughter throws.  She doesn’t kick and throw herself to the ground, it doesn't end up like the normal toddler tantrum.  She simply screams (at the top of her lungs) her point, argues her point, and whines until she gets her way.  Surprise!  That’s me.  Well…not exactly, but close.

I don't like not being heard!

I think that is a...
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Bipolar

Welcome Back Mania, Oh How I’ve Missed You!

Is there a "good" side of bipolar? Absolutely.  It's called mania.  Those who suffer from bipolar and swing between severe depression and hypomania learn to love and welcome the mania.  It is why a lot of people who have bipolar end up going off their medications.  Mania feels good.  It is the most amazing natural high one can feel for no reason.  The euphoria is addictive, and dangerous.

I am very limited on the medications I...
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Family

The Bipolar Wife: Finding Happiness

I married my husband after a very short 4 months of dating.  The first 6 years were very tough.  I left him half a dozen times and hated him as much as I loved him.  It was a challenge from the first week!  Marriage in itself is tough, but when you throw in undiagnosed bipolar, whoa, it becomes impossible!

Any mental illness out there can really wreak havoc on a relationship.  Most of the...
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Parenting

Parenting 101: Where The Heck is My Handbook?!?

So my oldest son is 14 now. Being 30 myself, that age feels as though it was just a few short years ago and I remember it vividly.  Okay, so maybe it really was only a few short years ago. Anyway, I find it very easy to relate to any teenage girl in the world but a teenage boy?  Oye!  Someone save me!

A teenage boy = a furry ball of emotions and hormones that revolve around a girl.

That's basically it in...
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Parenting

Coping With a Tantruming Child, Oh My!

So yesterday my husband was off work and we decided to run a couple of errands.  My van (we just bought, already broken!) is in the shop for repairs so we are stuck with the hubby's Honda Accord.

Anyway, as I'm sure it's pretty obvious cramming 3 kids in the back seat isn't exactly easy, it's even harder when one of them is 14 and all long-legged.  My almost 4 year...
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